I’ve always been someone that’s nostalgic for the past. I love to dwell on the good emotions I was feeling at the time, but this also makes me remember what I didn’t like about the past. It’s hard for me to separate those emotions without losing the entire memory itself, which makes it difficult to move on from whatever event made me sad.

This isn’t just the case with my memories either, it can be about other people’s pasts as well.

Which can be a bit problematic because why should I care about the status of someone’s life during a time when I wasn’t even apart of it?

But I do, I worry constantly, and for no good reason other than the fact that I’m being selfish.

I know this isn’t an uncommon issue among all different types of people. We’re nosy by nature, and want to know way more than we should even if it hurts our feelings.

You can’t erase something that happened to you, and you can’t help that someone might have a problematic past or had people in their lives that shouldn’t have been there. It’s all apart of growing up. Not everything is going to be perfect or turn out now it should the first try. People have to have all kinds of experiences before they’re ready land where they need to be.

Making mistakes is apart of life, and should be welcomed because demanding perfection isn’t realistic.

You will meet people sometimes who are only meant to be in your life for a short period of time, and others will stick around.

Not to say that some people are only in your life as a role in your character development. On both sides of the coin there was a purpose served for both parties, and it can either end or it doesn’t.

So my new outlook for 2020 is to stop dwelling on the negative aspects of the past and people that were not only in my life but maybe were in other people’s lives. Because at the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter. What’s important are the people in your present, and who will be there for your future.

A wise woman once said: “The thing that you really want, and is gonna be really good for you, and is supposed to be in your life, is ahead of you, not behind you. You should never be going backwards, because there’s nothing for you there.” - Ellie Schnitt