Recently I ended a relationship with my boyfriend who was my best friend and I saw a future with. We had discussed marriage, kids, and our future of me moving down to New Orleans to live where he lived. I was blessed to have dated one of the best guys I believe is out there. He had been my rock for so long through some of the toughest moments and nights in my life.I couldn't have truly asked for anyone better to have experienced the magic with in Disney. He showed me how to be loved and how to love which is the greatest gift he could have ever given me.
After spending time in New Orleans last month by his side I left feeling better about our relationship than I ever had. We had plans of getting an apartment together, I applied to the University and was accepted and I was looking for jobs in the hotel industry. At the time I figured as long as I was by his side I would be happy and content. It wasn't until I came back home and nearly a month after leaving NOLA one of my best friends faced with me with a cold hard fact, what if it wasn't my dream to be down there? My dream has always been to work alongside the Tigers in the business field. I was giving up my dreams, I was risking to leave my family, friends and myself behind holding onto someone I wanted to be with.
One day I woke up and realized this wasn't the dream I want to live, it's the dream he wants to live and I will support him 100% while striving to complete my dreams. It hurt like hell to walk away from someone who gave me so many amazing memories and was there when I needed someone. Through him I learned so much about life, love, and myself. The man he is becoming is someone I am proud to say I know, he is smart and is a go getter. He doesn't stop until he achieves his goals, and I wasn't going to be the one to hold him back. When you love someone sometimes the best thing to do is to let them go to accomplish what they want to in life.
As far as my dreams I achieved a job I had been looking into for a while, working with children who have autism and I realized this is where God wants me to be. I'm meant to focus on myself, I'm meant to do what makes me happy and I'm meant to make my health the best it has ever been. Through my now ex but forever friend I learned many valuable life lessons. Most important, I learned as much as it hurts like hell to let someone go for the best interest at heart for both of your lives you can maintain mutual respect. I respect the person he is and the person I'm able to watch him grow into.
If you are ever at the point you don't know if you should choose yourself or someone please always choose yourself. Never question if you should put your dreams on hold for someone else to live theirs. Whatever is meant to be will be, and whatever Gods will is will work out. I promise as much as it may suck it will be okay.
