I've always believed in love at first sight. My parents fell in love at first sight, as well as my grandparents. I've heard the mushy, gushy stories of the first time their eyes met and those feelings were so strong.
It took me almost 20 years, but I had that love at first sight moment. However, I finally saw me and fell in love.
Self love is becoming such a trend. Girls are realizing their worth and not basing it off of society's standards. Guys are realizing that they're more than their body count and appearance. It's so refreshing and motivating.
I've never been okay with myself. I've hated my flaws. I've built them up in my head to be so much bigger and more horrid than they truly are. I felt that everyone would see them from a mile away and make fun of me for it. My weight doesn't matter to literally anyone. The only person who my weight effects is literally me, and that's because I psych myself out because of it. That's always been my most hated aspect about myself. It made me not want to get out of my comfort zone or chase my dreams. Along with my weight, having people who would belittle me for various reasons and just tear me down and hurt me would cause more pain that I didn't need. Different exes, former friends, and even sometimes strangers would just be rude due to this or that, never a good enough reason to be mean. It was devastating and I just built up an even bigger wall than I already had.
One day, I was in my bathroom, and I just looked in the mirror and cried. I broke down. I felt like I had hit rock bottom and wasn't going to ever be able to get back up. However, that was the day that I realized my worth too. I realized that I was more than a scale could ever show me. I learned that the people saying those awful things, were trying to make themselves feel better. Hurting people hurt people. I stood up, brushed myself off, and decided to change my life. After that day, every thing changed. I was happier. I'd go out with friends more often, take more pictures, wear what I wanted. I was living my life finally and freely.
I looked in the mirror the other day and realized I was in love. I'm in love with the person I am and the person I'm growing into every single day.
Fall in love with yourself. It'll be the greatest relationship you'll ever have.
