What It's Really Like Being An Introvert In College

What It's Really Like Being An Introvert In College

I don't want any human interaction today.

I walk into a room, and everyone is staring. They're not staring at me because I did something... they're staring at me because I am also a new shape with different eyes, a nose, and a mouth, like them.

The mind of an introvert can make everything seem like a problem.

When I walk into a room full of people, my mind goes haywire.

"Are they judging me?"

"Are they judging me for what I am wearing?"

"Why are they looking at me?"

"Did I mess up on my makeup?"

"Is there something on my face?"

"Do I look sad?"

"Do I look tired?"

"Did someone overhear me say something and I'm being judged for what I said?"

"I don't want any human interaction today."

By this point in school, professors that I've had for a majority of my college career all know I despise getting called on. Ninety-five percent of the time, I don't know the answer. The times I have gotten called on, my face turns tomato red, I feel nervous and shaky, and I trip on my words. The spotlight is on me and I wish it would move in a different direction.

When I walk out of the classroom, I'm either the first person or the last person.

When I am walking around campus to my next class, students and cars are rushing past me. I am looking down at my phone for three different reasons: I don't want to zone out and accidentally make awkward eye contact with anyone, I don't feel like talking and want to evaluate in my mind how my day has been going so far, or if I see someone who I don't talk to/get along with.

When I walk into the dining hall, I have to constantly remind myself to remain calm. Students are walking in so many different directions for food and drink that sometimes I forget how to walk properly in there. Sometimes I will almost bump into someone and feel uncomfortable afterward. After that, I really don't want any human interaction.

Surprisingly, if you drop me in a large crowd, I would be fine. Usually, that's an introvert's worst nightmare, but for me, I don't mind because I no longer feel alone. But it can be different when you have social anxiety and you forgot to get ketchup after sitting down. I pray that I'm not being stared at as I awkwardly get up from my chair after debating with myself for 10 minutes if I really needed that ketchup or not.

If I have to get up and get something, I avoid all eye contact as much as possible by either not looking up, or by looking straight ahead. I've gotten better over the years and gained more confidence with getting up by myself in front of a crowd, however, the anxiety is still planted inside of me.

When I am waiting for someone in a building on campus, I look down at my phone. I look at emails because it's the only thing trying to engage with me at all times of the day.

When I am working out, I do my best to focus on myself and not the others around me. This is the time I really don't want any human interaction unless I am with my friends. My music is loud, and my mouth is shut. Working out is my time. The time I'm the quietest.

Only not as quiet when I am sitting down in a room with a group full of people. This group of people could even be my friends. As I'm sitting next to everyone, my mind is trying to process all of the conversations so I can think of what to say next, except by the time I've thought of something, the subject has already changed. Sometimes, I don't have a second to speak because I'm too late.

When I am at a party, I know I will never be the most outgoing person there. I'll be with my group of friends, but I'll never be the person to go up to anyone else I don't know and start a conversation. When I'm at a party, my eyes will be looking in all different directions to see who's here, and what they're doing — not in a judging way.

Being an introvert isn't necessarily a bad thing, or at least what people make it out to be. It can be hard for sure, but it's something that I've had to accept, because I'll always be like this. I can improve to be more talkative and outgoing.

But I know I'll always be the shy girl.

Cover Image Credit: Jordan Battey

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Yoga in the Bahamas

A breakdown of my first yoga experience in Bimini, Bahamas.

Let’s just be real about one thing: I don't do yoga.

I've only done yoga once in my life and in the midst of doing so had a full on, gut wrenching laugh attack in the middle of the class because I couldn't do any of the poses. Being fully in touch with nature and my inner self is a beautiful sentiment, but I've always thought that it’s just not for me. With that being said, I decided to observe a yoga retreat at Resorts World Bimini to really determine if I could ever become a full-on yoga enthusiast.

I mean, what better way to find out if I like yoga than to observe a beach side yoga retreat in the beautiful, serene and picturesque Resorts World Bimini?

My yoga experience started, no surprise, on a Saturday morning at 6 when I woke up before the sun to do a boat ride meditation. In retrospect, however, this was hands down one of the greatest experiences I’ve had at Resorts World Bimini. Together with the other retreat participants, I watched the sun rise. We were encouraged to notice the nature around us and it was pretty incredible. As we watched the sun rise, we read beautifully vivid passages from sacred texts while soft music played in the background.

After the boat ride, I got to spend a relaxing day exploring the resort as I have many times before. I can't lie though, the meditation we did in the morning really set the tone for the day and made it all the more relaxed. I spent part of my day at Luna Beach and found myself staring out into the ocean and feeling just a bit more connected to it - a truly harmonious moment I didn't think I'd ever authentically experience on a yoga retreat.

Next up was an afternoon yoga session by the pool. I watched as the participants did some impressive poses, breathing and stretching, but this time I stayed behind the camera where I belong.

While the afternoon yoga session was definitely not my thing, the sunset meditation hours later was magnificent. Overlooking the gorgeous Luna Beach at the Resort, we sat in a close circle and watched as the sun set. You could really feel the serenity and love in the circle of people meditating. It was the perfect way to end a full day on the beach.

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If you love yoga, or you're like me and want to observe and see if it's for you, Luna Beach at Resorts World Bimini is having monthly yoga retreats, like this one, where you can meditate and relax on probably one of the most relaxing islands in the Bahamas.

For more information about yoga retreats and all the other events Luna Beach will be offering in the upcoming months, go to: http://www.lunabeachbimini.com/signature-events/

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