I'm sorry I couldn't be the friend that you needed.

I'm sorry I was going through a hard time when your life was getting better. I'm sorry you felt like you couldn't be there for me when I was going through my own issues. I'm sorry I was the one that told you the hard truth when you needed to hear it. I'm sorry if I wasn't supportive enough when I was busy with my life. And I'm sorry that my life kept going even when yours fell apart.

I wish our long talks, car rides and screaming songs at the top of our lungs could save this emptiness our friendship has turned into. I wish we could have that one summer back and we could be carefree and wild again. I never would have thought we could get to that place after all these years of secrets and promises.

I'm sorry my life settled down way before yours. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel less than me.

I know that I went from the crazy party girl to the very Christian settled working girl I am today. I'm aware all of my decisions effected you too. I hope you know how grateful I am that you helped and supported me through so many milestones.

Sometimes I want to call you a bad friend but at one time you never would have hurt me like this. I wish things could have been different. I wish you would have loved the women I became just as much as I do. You may think I haven't changed at all or that I'm still the young immature girl I was through most of our friendship. For that, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry you never got to see the passion I have for all the new things that make my life better because you stopped coming around. I'm sorry you got so caught up in your new life that we grew apart. I'm sorry that I started feeling more like a burden than a best friend.

At the end of the day, all of this was probably both of our faults. You stopped being there when I needed you but I stopped reaching out as much too. I continued to better myself through things that you just weren't as interested in. You fell in love with someone I didn't like and I lost respect for you. We have both done things the other has hated but we have both gone above and beyond for each other.

I'm sorry we grew out of each others lives. I wish things like this never happened but sadly they do. I will never forget our long nights and car performances. I know in my heart we both could have avoided this but sometimes the inevitable happens. I'll never tell a secret and I pray you won't either. I'm sorry I couldn't be the friend you needed but I hope you find the one you do.