Ever since I was a kid, going to the doctor was a process involving a lot of nervous energy. I always dreaded arriving there early, just to have to wait and wait and wait. Being nervous about going to the doctor - no matter what kind of doctor, is something that I have recently realized is a personality trait that I probably will not ever be able to shake.
Explaining why I get nervous about going to the doctor is a difficult task. The truth is, there is no explanation. The funny thing with all of this is that I am not a bad patient. I always let the doctors do what they have to do, but the leading up is what gets me. Something about the anticipation, or maybe it's just the fear of the unknown. With all of this, I have to thank my mom for always accompanying me to my doctors appointments.
Just the other day, I had an appointment with an ENT to address frequent nose bleeds. Of course, I needed my mom to come. When the nurse brought me into the room, she took my blood pressure. It was a little high, and she asked if I was nervous. I said yes, since this is a typical occurrence for me.
Prior to the doctor coming in, I just sat there nervously laughing. I knew exactly what was to come of this appointment, but I was still nervous.
Getting nervous about going to the variety of doctors that I go to is a personality flaw that I'm convinced will never change. I thought that having back surgery would help me get over this, but I guess not. Going forward, I anticipate that my nerves will always be with me.
With that, I must say, thanks mom for always coming with me.
