Dear No one,

Sorry that I lied about my headline but maybe I just wanted to feel good for myself for one time in my life. I hear that it is a good feeling to have someone who believes in you and have that faith that no matter how you screwed everything up he believes that You are gonna fix it and he will always be there for you even when you fail him.

"We'd live the life we choose we'd fight and never lose "

I always loved this song by Mary Hopkin. I am not gonna lie and tell you that I had a miserable life. I actually used to be happy and did not care what might someone think of me. I had the power and the ability to shut everyone up. I had friends who stood by my side and we fought for each other but if you ask anyone of them they are gonna tell you that i wouldn't stand a chance. That I suck at everything.

They always have that way of ending up every loss to me. Like I was the reason for everything. Just tonight they said that hours ago. I work so hard trying to prove that I'm not the reason for every damn thing but Maybe the truth that I don't want to believe is that I don't belong. The conclusion is Don't ever listen to them. Don't be me.

"Those were the days my friend"

I had glory days and I was not always like that. I was the first between all the students at my high school. Although no one believed in me but I was able to tell them that I exist. That i am actually better than them. I feel like I am screwed and I can not face my life because I really wanted someone to have faith in me. To tell me that I am not that bad.

I am a mess and can not get myself up and I am afraid I am never gonna rise up ever again alone. But I still have that faith that someone will be there for me and when that day comes I swear I am not gonna fail him this time.

" So get up, get up, get up and go on Keep your head up, love Keep your heart strong "

" So get up, get up, get up and go on Just a little belief to shake off the doubt "

Sincerely,

Ahmed