To The Girl Who Only Thinks About Herself

To The Girl Who Only Thinks About Herself

Words are like knives, they can cut someone to the bone.

Lately, my articles have been selfish. Odyssey is a platform that gives me the power to write whatever I want and have people actually read it. The problem is, Odyssey has become my personal diary. I didn't notice until someone commented on one of my articles telling me that I was abusing the power I had and that should be ashamed and rethink my ways.

Well, commentator, you were right, so thank you. I thought about your words and you had me cold. I am abusing my power, in order to hurt someone else.

You see, I was writing about things that made me angry or that were hurting me, without thinking of the way it could hurt others. It made me feel better and that's all I cared about. I didn't think how bad words can hurt and stay with us. I guess I was never on the receiving end, in the way I was recently.

Or maybe I just forgot what it was like to be bullied because I'm confident in myself now. Maybe I'm confident because I began to act like the bully and try tearing people down to make myself feel better. I don't know, but I know I don't want to hurt like I did when I was bullied ever again.

We should all strive to be the best versions of ourselves and be careful of what we say because words are like knives, they can cut someone to the bone.

My mom always said, "Treat people the way you want to be treated." And I haven't been doing that. It's only brought me negativity and bad karma acting the way I have.

I got caught in this web of negativity and using my platform to lash out at those I felt deserved it. I was letting my selfishness get the best of me and that's not right. I don't want to let anger and negativity control me or what I put out in the world.

I am a pessimist, it's totally true. I'd rather expect disappointment than be let down. But just because I have a pessimist viewpoint internally, doesn't mean that's what I have to give out externally. And I try to be kind and good, but I'm human and I'm selfish, so I make mistakes. But the part the matters is how you try to fix or make up for those mistakes. It starts with acknowledging the problems in yourself.

Last week my article went viral. Like crazy viral and I was excited until I began getting death threats and hate mail. Reading things telling you that you should die or go kill yourself or that someone wants to cause you physical harm is never easy. I began to feel down and wanted my success to go away because the pain I felt from the negative comments was eating at me and it made me realize something I should have realized a while ago.

My selfish nature let me get caught up in using this platform as my diary to do the exact thing those terrible commenters were doing. I was hurting someone and making a spectacle out of it. I was abusing my platform and instead of using it for awareness or goodness, I used it to vent and for negativity. I may not have been giving death threats but I was exposing someone for my own childish motives.

And so, I'm sorry to the people I hurt with my articles. You know who you are and while we will never like each other, I'm going to end the cycle right here and right now of pain and negativity. There will be no more articles about you. I regret the ones I wrote because I can only imagine the pain they caused you, and I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize.

I'm sorry and I know you won't believe me, but that's okay, I have to prove my words with actions.

In a past article, I said the cycle of pain never ends and that we all contribute to it. I believe that. The cycle cannot be broken, for it is human nature, but I want to control my own emotional baggage so that I can contribute less to that vicious cycle and maybe, just maybe, one day I can stop contributing at all. One day, I hope to not hurt people with my words or actions.

I don't believe in tearing women down but that's exactly what I was doing to you. Like I said, I'm selfish. But here's to the end of that and here's to building you up because I may not like they things you do or how you act but you are strong and resilient. You are a powerful woman who can do so much. I believe in your power.

Your power comes from inside and the goodness we all have. We can choose to be negative and foster that nasty side of us, or we can choose to be positive and give happiness out into the world. I'm choosing happiness and positivity because I want to be better. I want to change and learn each day, so I'm the best person I can be.

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Dear judgemental, simple minded people from my hometown,

I am sorry that I have never met your level of perfection.

Coming from a small town, everyone settles to the norm of the people around them. Unlike you all, I have always been a little bit different.

I've never understood why everyone always seems to feel the need to talk down to the next person. People love to gossip about a situation as long as the situation has nothing to do with them. For every move I made, someone was always there to bring out the negativity in the situation. You all are always sweeping around somebody else's doorstep when I know your doorstep is not clean. Maybe it is time to buy a new broom. I know that I cannot please everybody and that I will also not be liked by everybody. However, I deserve respect just as the next person.

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I hope for the sake of the future generations of our small town, you all can learn to be more accepting to change.

I hope that no one judges your children like some of you all have judged me. I hope that the people that you love and care about are welcomed and accepted for who they are.

If we put as much time into being better people or helping others like you put into judging others, the world would be a much better place.

Imperfections are what gives a diamond its value. Pebbles are perfectly round. I'd much rather be a diamond, one in a million, than a pebble that fits in.


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Unless You Want Your Immune System To Be A Total Brat, You Should Probably Get Vaccinated

When it comes to vaccinating children, I support vaccines.


When it comes to vaccines, there is a broad range of opinions. Some people believe vaccines are bad and chose not to vaccinate their children. Then there are the people like me who believe vaccines are good. By all means, you are entitled to your own opinion and I'm sure my views won't persuade you, but there's so much more to think about when it comes to vaccines.

Majority of the vaccines we have received have the live virus in them. I'm almost positive you don't know why. Once the live virus enters the body, it teaches the immune system how to detect it and develop an immunity. For example, the chickenpox vaccine has a live virus. I received that vaccine when I was a baby and received a booster in the years after. Guess what I NEVER got? Chickenpox. Same goes for MMR (measles, mumps, rubella)

When it comes to vaccinating children, I support vaccines. A baby's immune system is not as strong as an adult. They are much more susceptible to different pathogens. Especially while in a public place. Children tend to put things in their mouths that could be covered in germs.

Did you know that vaccines are the reason why smallpox is not around anymore? Because of the vaccine, the United States has been free of polio since the 1970s. Before vaccines, smallpox was responsible for the deaths of 300 million people worldwide. Now, smallpox has been eradicated worldwide.

Polio caused severe paralysis to many people in the years of President Franklin Delano Roosevelt. Polio was so contagious that public places were shutting down. Then, Jonas Salk made the polio vaccine. Polio is now on the path to eradication... thanks to the vaccine.

Polio and smallpox vaccines are examples of inactive vaccines. This means there's no live virus in them.

By not vaccinating, you are putting yourself and others around you at risk.

I understand you have your reasons on why you choose not to vaccinate. I have my reasons why I do. If you still choose not to, I'm not going to judge you. That's your choice.

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