Hello from the girl who is afraid to get hurt.

I fully believe in the idea of love. I am a hopeless romantic, if you will. However, due to past relationships I have become afraid of the L-word. Everything about it strikes a cord in me.

Now, don't get me wrong, I still truly believe that true love exists in this world, because I have seen it. The problem is, I am just afraid of the word as anyone else because this means that I am putting my full faith in someone else and that leaves you vulnerable. And every time I have let myself be vulnerable with someone else, they tend to leave and hurt me. But, I pick myself up and dust myself off.

So yeah, I am afraid of being hurt again. Part of that leaves me a bit reserved. Or, I need to remind myself at times not to get too attached to people. However, It never works and I always do end up being hurt. So what do you do? Do you cut people off so you don't have to worry about that pain or do you dive fully into it hoping for the best in the end. What if the person you fall for isn't willing to do the same for you?

There are so many "what if" questions when it comes to avoiding being hurt. But in the end, you just have to accept that people will break your heart. And you need to prepare for that. Because sometimes people will surprise you. All of this fear and anxiety you feel around letting people in will only leave you alone in the end, and that is the one thing you don't want.

Sometimes, more often than not, the person you fall for is just as scared as you. They may just be better at hiding it. So why avoid something that could make you happy just because it is scary? Sometimes walking away does the most damage because you are denying yourself the happiness you deserve.

So, in the end yes it can be a little scary and as much as you tell yourself you don't want to be hurt again, some people are worth hurting over. You'll be hurt either way, so you just need to find the person worth hurting over. If you walk away from someone and they keep coming back, maybe they are meant to be in your life so stop pushing them away. And if you walk away and you never hear from that person again, you had great memories but they weren't meant to be in your life.

Fear only builds walls to keep people out, sometimes you just need someone to prove they are willing to break down your walls. so wait for the person who is willing to do just that for you.