How I Learned It's Me, Myself, And I
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How I Learned It's Me, Myself, And I

It was a form of reality I had been ignoring.

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How I Learned It's Me, Myself, And I
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I woke up early this morning, like I do every morning for work. My alarm goes off at 6:15 and I hit snooze. I fall back into a deep sleep. I soon realize I'm running through a dark hallway with a blanket wrapped around me, but he's nowhere to be found during the power outage.

I hear his voice calling me from the living room where the rest of his family was. I sit there next to him feeling scared and wanting him to protect me, but he fails to show me any type of affection at all. As much as I wanted him to wrap his arms around me and tell me everything would be okay, he never did. All I had was myself in that dark, cold house I vaguely remember.

I wake up to the sound of my alarm once again. 7:15 this time. An hour for that? I start to wake up and realize the dream I just had, and it makes me upset.

All I can think about is that dumb dream. However, I started to look at it from a different perspective. That dream was a form of reality I had been ignoring. This dream was trying to tell me something important.

He would barely ask me how my day was.

He wouldn't call me "beautiful" or "pretty".

He never wanted to see me.

He would leave me with a million questions in my head.

He didn't care.

I ignored all of this. I created excuses for him to think it was all okay. It's not. It took me a few hours this morning to look at the big picture, but I realized so much from such a small dream. Sometimes getting too infatuated with a relationship will leave you hurt in the end. However, it takes a great deal of strength and self-appreciation to move past it. I really learned that at the end of the day, I have myself. No one will ever be there for me, like I'm there for me.

Simple lesson, right? I guess so, but sometimes your dreams are trying to let you know something you may be avoiding. I could've avoided this dream and texted him this morning about it, but I'd be giving in to my weakness and becoming vulnerable instead of conquering my strengths to become stronger like I have the potential to.

I don't need someone who won't be there for me at the end of the day. I need someone who will ask me "hey how's your day going, beautiful?". I don't need someone who I have to beg to hangout with. I need someone who will say "picking you up in 5 be ready". I don't need someone to leave me unanswered questions in my head. I need someone who doesn't mind answering them for me.

I don't need someone who won't care.

I need someone who will show me they care.

I don't need the worried-sleep nights.

I don't need the heartbreak.

I don't need you.

And so, I woke up.

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