I hate that I love you.
Things would be much simpler if I didn't.
I would be able to focus more, keep my attention on myself and my success.
But everywhere I go, you're there, waiting around a corner ready to torture my heart and brain. I find myself thinking about you every day at random times. Everything reminds me of you, I want to tell you all about it. But you don't need to hear it.
One of the reasons I love you is because I rarely need to say what I'm thinking because you think the same things. Something happens and we both think of the same response or explanation. They always say opposites attract but we are the same, so what does that mean?
Any and all time away from you is painful but it just makes me happier when I finally see you. Maybe if I spend long enough away from you I'll be able to get over you, I'll be able to refocus on me. I don't want that to happen but it really is for the best.
It would be easier if you didn't play mind games; if you weren't hot then cold. I love that about you but I also hate it. Your personality is so unique, how can you not stand out to everyone. Why do you stand out so much to me?
You're one of the most important people in my life but I'm just another friend to you. Or is that just another one of your mind games? I may never know.
I don't understand it and maybe I never will but I hope something changes soon because right now?
I hate that I love you.





















