Growing Up Sucks

Growing up sucks. I don’t mean to have that stereotypical teen angst vibe but it’s the God’s honest truth.

I don’t even mean the financial aspects of “becoming an adult”, although constantly pouring money into a car on its last leg and saving for when those student loans are due is absolutely awful too.

What I am specifically referring to is watching some of my once best friends become social media acquaintances. What I mean is that they are now just another like on a picture or an occasional comment on a post.

Watching the days of long conversations, notes passed in class (because we couldn’t wait five minutes to share what was on our mind), and long night time drives, with no particular destination in mind, have become distant memories, with no new ones to replace them.

Realizing that suddenly it feels awkward to send a casual text asking what’s up or to hang out. Messages previously sent without a second thought are now clouted by an unfortunate mess of emotions that once were and still kind of are.

Finally seeing that everyone was right: high school becomes a distant blur along with most of the friendships made during that time. Perhaps I speak from a bit of a sophomoric perspective, being that I am only a college student, but there was a time not so long ago where I thought those friendships I formed would be forever. I thought it was us against the world, everyone was wrong and we would be the anomaly.

The part that’s the worst is coming to terms with the fact that someone you once couldn’t imagine life without is now nothing more than a passing thought or fleeting memory and you, you are one hundred percent okay.