Growing Up And The Days Of Auld Lang Syne

Growing Up And The Days Of Auld Lang Syne

I am moving on with my life

Hollywood Reporter

I’ve been thinking a lot about growing up. A lot about my future, where I am going to do, and what I envision my life to be like. I am a goal setter—I set long term goals—so much so that I am probably more of a dreamer than anything. I have so many plans for the future that they are impossible to count. For instance, I want to teach high school at some point, I would like to write novels and publish a series, and I would like to record an album to name a few of my unattainable goals. However, I am nineteen soon to be twenty. In many countries, I am fully an adult. It time for me to start making those dreams a reality and working towards those goals. Before I know it I will be out of time.

What I can’t get out of my head is that how fast it all happened. It seems like I was just starting middle school yesterday and now I am an adult. I can’t believe how fast my childhood went, and deep down, I wish it didn’t go so fast or I at least wish I had another crack at it. I miss the times when I would do nothing after school except my fifteen minutes of homework. I would venture outside where I would just daydream until dinner. I miss the times when I was a nuisance to my brothers and when my parent's love could eliminate all fears.

I am older now, I have hair growing on my face, I am meeting new people every day, I am working towards my future profession, and I am for the first time in my life, living alone for the most part (although I am surrounded by nineteen other dudes in the same boat, but you get my point). I worry. It’s one thing I have recently come to terms with. I have always been nervous and terrified of leaving my comfort zone. I worry about money, taxes, relationships, keeping in touch with old friends, and making sure I am the best person I can be. It is all so complicated and is showing me one thing above all else…

Adulthood is hard. There are so many things to remember. Currently writing this, I am in the basement where I spent some of the most important years of my life becoming who I am. This basement has been home to fights, uncontrollable laughter, sadness, break-ups, but most importantly, whether good or bad, some of the fondest memories. When this is posted I will be in Europe for the first time ever living my life, and potentially accomplishing some of those goals listed previously.

Looking back now, I realize how unprepared I was for the next step. Mentally, I over think. Physically, I am losing weight don’t eat as much. Emotionally, I am a wreck and confused. However, it is par for the course I guess. My parents went through it, my brothers did, and everyone older than me either did or is currently going through what I am. However, I am growing, discovering who I am, and will probably change more this few years than I will ever again in my life.

This is a complete “auld lang syne” situation, but if things ever get tough, or I ever need someplace to go. I can always go back to that basement, back to my brothers' company, or back to my parent's arms for comfort and guidance.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Health and Wellness

This Survey Shows How Quarantine And Drinking Relate, And I Can't Say I'm Surprised

"5 o'clock somewhere" is more of a guideline now than ever.

As it stands, and my friends and I are finally 21. We're extremely excited to be able to go out to bars and "get lit" as the kids say, but due to the pandemic, all of our plans have been put on hold. We'd rather wait and go when it's safe than risk spreading the infection and hurting our loved ones. So, we've all been quarantining apart, getting on the occasional wine zoom call. This made me wonder if anyone else our age were doing the same thing.

Then, I discovered this survey: We Surveyed Millennials And Gen Z About Their Quarantine Drinking Habits — Cheers. Here are 3 things that I discovered through the survey results.

Keep Reading... Show less

5 Easy Summer Mocktail Recipes You Can Make With Items You Probably Already Have On-Hand

Keep these drinks in mind next time you're visiting your local farmer's market — you might want to grab some extra mint and limes.

With Summer 2020 in full swing comes the addition of many fresh fruits and vegetables to brighten up your dinner plate, but also your glass! Farmers markets are my personal favorite place to look for produce that is in season to make fun mocktails with.

Keep Reading... Show less

5 Ways To Celebrate The 4th of July — Without Fireworks Or Social Gatherings

We created a list of things to do since social distancing may create a dent in our typical, planned traditions.

With the Fourth of July on Saturday, the usual tradition of popping fireworks, grilling out, and being surrounded by family has been modified due to the pandemic. Whether you're a loner or surrounded by family, there will most likely be some changes to your celebrations.

For weeks on social media, people across the country have been complaining that they have been subjected to fireworks going off at all times of the night into the early morning. This has sparked concern and questions about why this is happening and how are people even obtaining the fireworks.

Keep Reading... Show less

Carb And Cheese Lovers, Unite — These Are The Best Mac And Cheese Recipes On The Internet

Whether you need to get through the current pandemic or want to spice up your Fourth of July celebrations, these mac and cheese recipes will do just that.

My favorite food is mac and cheese, and it always has been. All it requires is noodles and cheese — it's so simple to make. Although it's my favorite, it can also get kind of mundane because it's such a simple recipe. This, of course, has led to many people all over the world experimenting with the American staple.

With our lives currently being turned upside down due to the pandemic, a lot of people are seeking comfort. These are scary times, and in order to make it day-to-day, we need to have our favorite foods as a standby. These recipes can also be used during your celebration of the Fourth of July.

Keep Reading... Show less
Health and Wellness

17 Things To Make You Feel GOOD This Week

Because some purchases are just necessary.

Y'all, we're struggling. You don't even have to tell me, I know. What a mess we're all in, right? This year is not going how we planned and the world has turned into one giant struggle bus. I guess you could be super philosophical about everything happening for a reason, but sometimes life is just hard.

There are plenty of ways to bring yourself out of whatever rut you're in. You could go for a run, have a snack, or read a book. Or, if you're really looking for an adrenaline rush, go shopping. This is obviously not going to solve the world's problems with one swift click of the "checkout" button, but hey, it may just give you the little boost you need today.

Keep Reading... Show less
Health and Wellness

I Wore A Butt Mask Every Day For A Month, And It's Officially Essential In My Daily Self-Love Routine Now

Thirty days later, my booty's as smooth as a baby's.

- Blissfully unaware that butt-care beyond squats was even something I should be considering in my self-care routine, I tried one of Bawdy Beauty's butt masks for the first time a month ago.

- I've never really given my butt a second though till I took a look at improvements that could be made with the mask — if one of the hydrating, firming, detoxifying, or brightening masks in the kit I received could either smooth out cellulite or tone my skin a bit more, I wasn't going to complain.

- Each Bawdy Beauty sheet mask comes in an individually-packaged sheet, soaked with a serum I massaged into my skin after removing said sheet. The clay butt mask comes in a convenient stick format I simply draw on to my skin and leave to set for about 10 minutes before hopping into the shower.

- I set a goal of committing myself to butt-care every day for one month. Between the regular use of sheet masks, clay masks, and their CBD Butt Balm in between, I didn't have many expectations.

- I thought the whole concept may just be a gimmick, but my butt has never looked so toned in my life, and the cellulite I had is almost completely gone. I wear one every single day when I get the chance.

I'm incredibly skeptical when it comes to marketing ploys and gimmicks in the beauty world. I'll be the first cynic to try out the latest serum on the market every influencer is raving about just to negate every grandiose claim it makes.

Keep Reading... Show less

Friends, you don't have to be quarantined to use a personal massager, you know? Because, sure, quarantine made for a lot of extra quality time with yourself, but no matter what phase of the reopening process you're in, it's normal and actually healthy to take care of your sexual needs on your own.

Keep Reading... Show less

5 Books I Didn't Realize Are About Gay Women

If you read primarily LGBTQ fiction, then this list might help to expand your TBR list.

Photo by Ketut Subiyanto from Pexels

Frequent readers of LGBTQ fiction might feel like they're reading the same book over and over again, with few exceptions.

Most of these books were on my TBR list for months and I didn't realize they were about gay women until I was reading them, hopefully, this list of books can interest you in expanding your reading material and seeking out different stories.

Keep Reading... Show less
Facebook Comments