I love you. Yes I know it's a feeling I should not still have for someone who decided I was not worth a fight or a chance. But with everything that we went through, every little kiss, every road trip, every hug, every caring gaze, every I love you. I still do not understand how you could give that up so easily. Everything that we had ever done was it just not worth it for you anymore? All I want to know is why you decided that even after I got on my knees to beg you to stay with me. That our love was so strong that we could get through everything. Why you dragged out our relationship if you just wanted to end it anyway. Why flirt and talk to another girl while I was with my family 300 miles away from you telling you how much I loved you yet you were ready to jump into a new relationship while we were still engaged.

We were engaged for months, the best months of my life, the time I spent with you I was at my happiest that I had ever been and it was all because of you because I loved you. You were my sun, I needed you. When you got on one knee and proposed to me, you wanted a future with me and no one else, that I made you feel like a new person, that you had never been happier.

I was the one with you all those days you thought everything was hopeless I was there when you cried when we laid in your bed and you cried all I did was hold you and tell you that it was all okay and that I would never leave you. And I didn’t break that promise, you broke it yourself the moment you decided to end everything.

Moving out of the house we shared together tore me apart. All I wanted to do was cry for days. And I did. But what was harder than moving out was living with you for a week, a whole five days I shared that house with you, I shared a bed with you. Laying next to you at night was so hard. You said you were always going to love me, but here we are. You held me in your arms those days after we made love or I guess “it was meaningless sex” as you told me the night before I left. The hurt could have also been knowing you were lying to me that you were with friends when you were with “her”, trying to get me to stay with friends so you could bring “her” over. I bet you thought I didn’t know, but I did. I know for a fact and you had told me yourself that I was the smarter one in the relationship. So yeah I did read all your messages yes I did take pictures of them yes I have all the proof I would ever need to prove you were with her. It KILLED me to now that it hadn't even been a day and you already couldn't “get enough of her”.

Why am I writing this now? Well because I realized that I am doing much better without you. I am myself again. I changed who I was for you and my friends pointed that out but I was blinded by love. I have been back in my hometown for a month exactly, it has been a month since I lived with you and I know my life has gotten better. I have been relaxing, working, hanging with friends, and yeah I have hung out with a few guys. It’s amazing to remember that before you I had all my freedom and could do what I wanted without feeling like I needed your permission.

I am happy again and whenever I see something about you that brings me down all I have to do is look at my arm because I got a tattoo that says “Be Happy” to remind me that I am a happy person who does not need any man bringing her down. I am strong and I am independent. You told me both of these things when we first started dating. And I know I am, I know that I am a better person without you by my side. I am going to do everything I ever wanted. I am graduating with my Bachelor’s Degree at 20 and have already got early acceptance into grad school, and I have job offers around the country. I am going to make it far in life. I am not just going to manage a movie theatre like you are doing. I have big things waiting for me and I am spreading my wings to fly and go after them.

I have so many amazing friends that have helped me through everything. They are always there for me and I love them so much.

So, thank you for showing me I could be in love and be happy. As well thank you for breaking my heart because that is what is making me a stronger person today.

Goodbye C.

-Danielle