I was always the type of person to take a backseat, especially when it came to big decisions. I figured that whatever was going to happen would happen whether I did anything or not, so there was no point. I became an audience member to my own movie, watching but not participating. I figured that it was all a waiting game; whenever something was going wrong, I assumed that fate would eventually bring something good, since "good things come to those who wait."
It turns out that nothing truly good happens to people who take a passive role in their own lives. Sure, I had lots of wonderful things in my life that I was thankful for, but nothing that I had earned or really worked for. I sat back and watched everything happen, unwilling to take on any responsibility for the things I really wanted. I thought that being soft-spoken meant that I couldn't be a leader or even take initiative, especially in my own life.
It turns out that becoming the leading lady isn't really that hard. All it takes is a bit of courage and willpower, and a little push out of your comfort zone. I got so sick of feeling like I had no control over my life so I decided to do things that I was always too scared to do, to live outside of my little bubble. I started to actively make changes in my life, and instead of fueling a cycle of self-pity, I picked out the things I wanted to change about myself and actually made plans to change them.
Contentment is what we make it and so is happiness. You choose to either be passive or active in your own life. If you're unhappy, do something about it. I spent too much time feeling bad for myself rather than acting on the things that made me upset or sad. If I had just decided to cut negative people out of my life and change bad habits, I could have been so much happier. Knowing that now, there is no way that I could go back to being so apathetic. So stop letting your life pass you by and start being the best version of yourself.
