I Hate Driving So I Let God Take The Wheel

I Hate Driving So I Let God Take The Wheel

With a lack of direction, I decided that this summer was the summer for God to come in and do whatever He wanted with my life.


At the end of the school year, I assumed that I'd be back in my hometown surrounded by family and working as a CNA (certified nursing assistant). I assumed that I'd spend my free time reading and sunbathing. I truly thought that I'd spend my last collegiate summer doing what I had been the other 3 times.

However, a month in and I am living in Charlottesville. I have a job at a garden center. The friend that I was planning to spend a lot of time with had to go home indefinitely. This is certainly not what I expected.

I really can't tell you why I decided to come back to Charlottesville. My parents weren't exactly happy, but I was set in my decision. At that point, I didn't have a job. I was literally coming back to do nothing. I had one friend left in town. I had never driven in Charlottesville before. Why in the world did I decide to uproot everything and leave my comfort zone?

I have no clue what is going on, but I know God is behind it all.

Once I arrived in Charlottesville to an empty house and nothing set to do, I panicked a little bit. What in the world did I just do? I have to cook for myself and drive places. I have to buy groceries. What do I do with my life?

Yet, during all this panic, I also had an unexplainable peace. With the lack of direction, I decided that this summer was the summer for God to come in and do whatever He wanted with my life. I prayed that He would point me to what He wanted me to do and to give me the ability to trust Him in it.

The first week was weird. I walked to Starbucks a lot. I did a lot of quiet times (with my new bible). I read a lot. I started watching "The Office." However, I was getting bored. I needed something more active to do with my summer.

It made sense to look for CNA jobs, but in my heart, that was the last thing I wanted to do. I decided to apply at Barnes and Noble (my bucket list job), but that was a dead end. While looking for jobs, I ran across a position for garden maintenance, and on a whim, I decided to apply. I had never gardened before, I had rarely found myself outdoors for the fun of it, and I had never heard of the place, but before I knew it, I had a job that I was slated to start in two days. Cool.

I've only worked there for a bit, but it's fun. It's hot and sometimes physical, but I get to be in nature, and I'm usually by myself (my introvert dream). I find myself getting to talk to God and really appreciate the world He made.

On days off, I frequent Barnes and Noble. I hang out with pals. I do my quiet times. I go to Book Club. I'm happy here.

I still don't know God's full purpose for the summer. I may never know. But I am living it, I am enjoying it, and I'm using the freedom from stress to figure out what I believe and what is important to me.

I don't like change, yet this summer, everything has changed. I've never gardened in my life, but now it's my job. I hate driving, but here, I drive daily. There's no way that I alone decided to lead my life in this direction.

This summer, I am consciously letting God take the lead. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and conquering my fears. I can't wait to see what all happens.

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I'm A Woman And You Can't Convince Me Breastfeeding In Public Is OK In 2019

Sorry, not sorry.


Lately, I have seen so many people going off on social media about how people shouldn't be upset with mothers breastfeeding in public. You know what? I disagree.

There's a huge difference between being modest while breastfeeding and just being straight up careless, trashy and disrespectful to those around you. Why don't you try popping out a boob without a baby attached to it and see how long it takes for you to get arrested for public indecency? Strange how that works, right?

So many people talking about it bring up the point of how we shouldn't "sexualize" breastfeeding and seeing a woman's breasts while doing so. Actually, all of these people are missing the point. It's not sexual, it's just purely immodest and disrespectful.

If you see a girl in a shirt cut too low, you call her a slut. If you see a celebrity post a nude photo, you call them immodest and a terrible role model. What makes you think that pulling out a breast in the middle of public is different, regardless of what you're doing with it?

If I'm eating in a restaurant, I would be disgusted if the person at the table next to me had their bare feet out while they were eating. It's just not appropriate. Neither is pulling out your breast for the entire general public to see.

Nobody asked you to put a blanket over your kid's head to feed them. Nobody asked you to go feed them in a dirty bathroom. But you don't need to basically be topless to feed your kid. Growing up, I watched my mom feed my younger siblings in public. She never shied away from it, but the way she did it was always tasteful and never drew attention. She would cover herself up while doing it. She would make sure that nothing inappropriate could be seen. She was lowkey about it.

Mindblowing, right? Wait, you can actually breastfeed in public and not have to show everyone what you're doing? What a revolutionary idea!

There is nothing wrong with feeding your baby. It's something you need to do, it's a part of life. But there is definitely something wrong with thinking it's fine to expose yourself to the entire world while doing it. Nobody wants to see it. Nobody cares if you're feeding your kid. Nobody cares if you're trying to make some sort of weird "feminist" statement by showing them your boobs.

Cover up. Be modest. Be mindful. Be respectful. Don't want to see my boobs? Good, I don't want to see yours either. Hard to believe, I know.

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From A Second-Semester College Senior, Graduation Puts A Lot Into Perspective

Focus on the things that you did with passion, and focus on the things that made you when they very truly could have broken you.


Recently, my friends and I thought back over the past four years and wondered if we could go back in time and do it all over again, would we?

No, was my instinctive response. And while my friends talked about how they would go back and change things, I realized that I really wouldn't. Maybe do a few things earlier, but no.

This is not to say that my collegiate life has been flawless and perfect, but rather, imperfectly flawed, as I like to think of it. A lot has happened in my four years... a lot. I went through things that I never wanted to go through, I saw my friends get hurt, I lost friends, gained some, and experienced a roller coaster of things during my time here at Miami University.

But all of those things — the really utterly terrible, the bad, not-so-bad, and good — brought me to who I am today. And I feel pretty powerful. I can talk about the trauma that I've experienced and fight for things to change so that others never have to go through what I went and still am going through. I can talk about how you can feel like the least powerful person on the planet because you saw something that triggered you and made you think, even if only for a split second, that your life was terrible and not worth living. I can talk about how scared some things make me because I am terrified of small silver cars, people who look like my rapist, and I'm even afraid of studying history sometimes, which really, really sucks.

Now, college wasn't all bad! I found the love of my life in the most unsuspecting place when I needed him the most. I found friends who have been through hell with me and still support me and push me to be the best I can be.

If you're just getting into college, or you've spent some time there already, my biggest advice is to do everything with passion. If you can't go to that spring break trip, or studying abroad just wasn't in the cards for you, don't look back and focus on those losses. Focus on the things that you did with passion, and focus on the things that made you when they very truly could have broken you.

You're in college for a reason, so don't take anything for granted. Ask questions, attend that free event, go get that free food your apartment complex hosts, but most importantly don't let yourself hold you back. If you don't have the money to do it, then focus on the stuff you can do. I couldn't afford a study abroad or spring break, but I spent my time baking, cooking and painting — all of which I never really knew I could do.

It's a lot easier to say this looking back on my years, but recognize what can be made the best of your experience, and do it. Don't be afraid.

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