I don’t know about you, but for me finals are always the most stressful time of the semester. I always seem to have more going on than I think I can handle. During the semester, everything seems to be easy going and then all of a sudden I get a slap in the face like I have not been working hard enough already. I realized that the spring semester of my junior year has been the hardest semester yet. Instead of blaming myself, I stopped and just did what I had to do. I have always been the one to worry about the slightest things, giving myself anxiety. This semester I did not have time for anxiety. I work near 30 hours a week, driving an hour from my house to work. Then the two days a week that I do not work, I drive about an hour and a half to get to campus to attend my classes. I have been planning my wedding, attending a women’s bible study, and still tried to maintain a small morsel of time for family and friends, along with having to prepare to take care of my fiancé because he had major surgery the same day as a few of my exams.
I do not mention these things to complain, however. I mention these things to glorify God. Sometime around a week ago, I realized I couldn’t go any further. I was stressed, I was at my breaking point, I was tired, and I was angry. I was definitely not enjoying my life. Then as I was reading Facebook I came across a post by Joyce Meyer, and it said, “Enjoying your life is about knowing who you are in Christ. If you have it right on the inside, you can handle anything on the outside.” Wow, this really spoke to my heart and answered my question: “Why?”
You see, even though I have been trying to be the best version of me and read my bible, attend church, pray, and act how God would want me to act, I realized I was still not allowing that empty hole to be filled. I needed to trust Jesus and rely completely on his guidance through these things I have been faced with. So I let go and let God. Since I have completely turned all my focus to Him and allowed him to fill me with the strength I needed, I can honestly say I have never felt better. I feel whole again. My anxiety has gone away. I have confidence. I can focus. I am well. He is the way, the truth and the life, and I know in my heart that I would not have gotten through it without him.
I share this story with you because when all else fails, God won’t. When you can’t walk anymore, God will carry you through. One day you will look back and say, “How did I do it?” Then you will know in your heart it is because you Let go, and let God. So stop worrying about Finals and instead cast all your cares to him. Work hard, and he will guide you through. Once you allow him to be on your side, you can accomplish anything.
