You thought she would be in your life forever. You thought you would share the same life experiences with her and things would always be the way they are right now. Friendship is truly a beautiful thing. It's one of the greatest gifts we could ever experience. A person to share life with where you can be completely yourself. You go from sharing playlists and listening to music together to not even speaking; not even knowing what's gone on in their lives in the past week. Where there use to be a never ending text message thread, now is a blank screen.

I've always taken friendship seriously. I don't casually throw around my time and energy to people who don't respect me or want the best for me. A lot of people ask if friend breakups are worse than romantic breakups. Personally, I don't think that question is valid. It's two different types of hurt. Romantic wounds always sting more because it cuts a certain way. Friendship breakups are more of a dull pain that doesn't go away with time. It's the moments in between life where you think "I really wish they could be here right now, or I wish I could call them about this." It's the times where something exciting happens and they used to be the first person you'd tell. It's when you get a new job or get a new dog and you want to tell them. It's when you get engaged and you realize they won't be in your wedding like you once thought. It's when you realize you'll never be pregnant at the same time and go to prenatal yoga together. It's where you realize your kids will never grow up together like you once imagined. You'll never have those play dates or coffee dates or girls nights.

It takes times to heal. In time you'll make new friends that will replace these hurts. You'll make new memories and you can be happy again but only if you let yourself. You can't stay in the past and try to change something that just cannot be changed. For whatever reason it was time for you and your best friend to move on. Maybe it can be rekindled in the future but most likely you'll grow apart. And you know what? It's okay. It's okay that your lives came to a crossroad. Their journey in your life is over, and yes it was beautiful but it was also very hurtful. Let it heal and let it pass. Someone wise once told me that it's better to have one good friend than have five fake ones. Yes,that wise person is my mother. Growing up means losing friends and that's completely normal. Embrace your journey and focus on being the best friend you can be to those around you.