We all dwell on the past. Don’t deny it you do and I do. I can’t help it it's simply who I am. Recently, I’ve been pondering over some things that I wish I could change. For example, meeting someone who not only broke every promise to me but also lied and to those who simply decided to walk away like friends. I have to say glad you’re not here.
This introduction sounds so incredibly harsh but I will make my point don’t worry. We all go through heartache, struggles, and evolve into whom we all aspire to be in life whether we see it right away or not. Believe me, I’m still in that process and it is one of the most exhilarating and beautiful things I have ever witnessed.
It took figuring out my true passion through internships and work, several relationships going south, friendships ending because they were not real friends to finally see the good in it all.
It was last Thursday night when I walked home at 2am from the library in thirty degree weather with the sky so clear that all you could see was stars. I felt at peace with my decisions like many have told me that I would once find.
I took a deep breath in; saw my breath, looked up at the sky while listening to one of my favorite songs Bob Dylan’s Shelter From the Storm. Ironic right? I clearly remember smiling as I kept walking to my car with a weird feeling. I felt at peace not because I was freezing but because I accepted my decisions. I accepted my faults; I accepted that I couldn’t change people nor the past. You can only learn and move forward. And sometimes this ‘Aha’ moment hits you randomly.
My point of this is to say through struggles you end up becoming stronger and more self-aware. Don’t dwell upon things you cannot change. Don’t let someone who didn’t value you nor treat you right stop you from chasing your dreams. Don’t let people who are not there for you walk all over you. You are magnificent and you deserve nothing but the best.
Therefore before I ramble anymore put the chapters in your past behind you, and put them on a shelf and forget about them as the only way for you to move forward is to truly love yourself, surround yourself with those who are there for you, and engulf yourself with complete positivity everyday.
