From the title of this article, you're probably thinking it's going to be a super negative later bashing whoever this person is. But that's not exactly it.
It's actually a thank you letter.
Honestly admitting from the start that I changed myself for you is pretty embarrassing. Even writing this article is pretty pathetic in my opinion. I've found I'm much better at writing words than I am saying them. So with that being said:
To the boy I changed myself for,
I think that any girl will admit that guys make us do some pretty crazy things. And at the time they don't seem so bizarre, because we are so caught up. But when it all comes to a close and everything becomes memories, we then realize we don't recognize ourselves at all.
The scary thing is, I had no idea how much I was changing.
Yet, not recognizing myself at the end was actually a good thing.
Before I met you, I was a totally different person. Almost unrecognizable from who I am now. And as bizarre as it sounds, I am so freaking thankful for it.
You introduced me to so many new things. New ways of thinking, new people, new music, new adventures, new ways of seeing things.
You unraveled layers of myself that I didn't even know existed, little by little.
You were so refreshing. Honestly, wrapping my head around you took so long. The late night talks we had, talking about everything under the sun still to this day leave knots in my stomach. Good knots. Because the thought of having someone who understood me 100% was beyond unfamiliar. And having someone who totally understood you was new to you too.
I think that's why it was so beautifully terrifying. And that's why you ran.
There was so much to you. You were so intricate. And I spent all my days chasing after something that wasn't chasing me back. Yet, I thank you for it.
Thank you for showing me my worth. Thank you for challenging me. Thank you for showing me the depth of people. Thank you for showing me how much I am capable of loving. Thank you for taking me out of my comfort zone. Thank you for starting a fire in me.Thank you for showing me how to be vulnerable. Thank you for showing me my strength.Thank you for being man enough to be honest with me.
But most importantly, thank you for showing me you should never do anything if it only has half of your heart.
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You shook my world, broke me down and cracked me open. And I Thank you.
Because the world needs me open.
You gave me exactly what I thought I wanted, but showed me it was not what I needed. And it's not what you needed either.
We were so terrifyingly good for each other. You were the only one that didn't see it. I learned you can never convince someone to want you back.
At first, I believed that I had changed for you. All these things that had become important to me, I believed I loved them because they were important to you. But now I realize all that all the change was for me.
You just were the magnificent thing that brought me to it.
You showed me that beautiful things aren't perfect. And I cannot thank you enough.
You taught me to love the experiences that shaped me. And this is one of them.
I believe that everyone you meet in life plays a part in your story.
Some a sentence.
Some a paragraph.
Some a full chapter.
And then there are some that become some integral in your life, that you put their name in the title. So that's exactly what I am doing.
I broke my own heart holding onto you.
And I thank you for it.
I've learned to let go of what I thought should have happened and instead decided to live in what is happening. And the best part is, it hasn't let me down yet.
