When something begins, you generally have no idea how it's going to end. The only problem is, I never thought there would be an end for us.

You know how in every persons life there is that one individual friend who is always there? I'm not talking about the girl you're friends with for your middle school years and then when you enter high school you two never speak again. I'm talking about the one who went through the awkward stages with you, the one who is always honest with you (no matter how good you think you look, she's always gonna be real with you), you're biggest fan and best critic.

That's what you were to me. You were the person that no matter how frustrated I got at life, you always knew what to say to cheer me up.

It seems like yesterday we were sixteen in high school who were just strangers. Now, four years later, we're in college and strangers again.

It's been almost three months since we've spoken, which feels like forever in our terms. We used to talk everyday, I used to know everything about you. From what you wanted to study this fall, to your favorite song, to what you wanted your future to look like. But then everything seemed to change. You were invested in a new relationship and I became your back up plan, a person you wanted when it was convenient for you only. I never said anything even though it was killing me inside. You were more than a best friend to me. You were high school to me, from all the boyfriends and the cruel girls with their cold words, to our teachers that would stress us out, along with our mothers that drove us crazy most of the time. We went through it all together. You helped me get through the rough parts, I helped you through the confusing parts. We helped each other grow in our time together. You were my sister. My other half.

But sadly, everything has changed. We're on two different paths now. No one told me you would leave me behind. You were supposed to be there for it all. I learned at a very young age that nothing ever happens the way we want it to, ever. I have to keep reminding myself that and that I can't change you.

I still care about you and want only the best for you in life. I hope the friends that you have now are amazing and good to you. I've come to terms with our "break up".

I've tried to write this a million times, and I think in a way this article is final closure for me. I got to say the things that I never got to say to you.

Hope you're well.