When people ask me what my biggest fear in life is, my response is simple: being unhappy. I don't see a point in living life if you aren't happy about the life you are living. But sometimes, you lose your happy and feel as if you have become lost. Lost from who you are as a person and what is important to you. Not knowing what direction you are heading and not knowing where to find your happy again.
Finding happiness is not a destination though. There is no end sign that says "Congrats, you found everything you are looking for." There is no completion to your journey, and then from that point on, everything is rainbows and butterflies. Happiness is an emotion. It comes and goes just as sadness and anger do. There are some days where you will be happier than others. And there will be some days where you feel completely content.
As time has gone on in my life, I have learned to be more self aware to what I am feeling, and how my current actions affect that feeling. I try to take more time to reflect on my current state, versus dwelling on the past or being anxious about the future. There is a difference between planning ahead, and being crazy worried. I have noticed that I am happier than I have been in the past. And when I say that, I don't mean I am a happy go-lucky girl who smiles all the time. I mean I am more consistently content with my life, and feel positive about what will happen.
I recognize that I have grown a lot from my past self, and I know that I will continue to do so. But in the meantime, I am going to live in my moment. I am going to accept all that happens to me, all emotions and all events. If I am unhappy about something that is happening I am going to take action and change it, but not stress about it being different than it is. Life happens the way it is supposed to happen. Finding happiness doesn't just happen. You don't get to achieve one thing and have everything else fall into place. Finding your happy is a journey in its own. My one goal, is at the end of the day, to be happy about who I am, what I have done, and what I will do.
Find your happy in everyday moments. Trust me, they are there.
