Have you ever wanted something so badly, but you don't get it, but all of your friends get what they want? Well, I have been having that feeling a lot lately. I have been trying to figure out what to do next semester, but no matter what I want to do, those rejection letters keep coming at me.

The first one I thought, OK, I still have other options, but then by the last one when I was an alternate, I was crushed. I kept feeling like I was worthless on the inside, but I was trying to put on a brave face and pretend like I was happy for my friends getting either what I wanted or just what they really wanted. On the inside, I was screaming at them and being jealous that they got everything they could have wanted, and I'm sitting over here with nothing.

It took time for me to just cry and have some supportive people by my side to just realize that everything was going to be OK. I just needed time to realize that as my best friend kept telling me, "Everything happens for a reason, and they probably just didn't want somebody as awesome as you."

That made me smile 99% of the time. At one point it was 1:00 am and I thought my favorite food would cheer me up, I ended up crying in the restaurant, but my friend was there and just hugged me. (Luckily it was 1:00 am and nobody else was in the restaurant, but really it's college, somebody is always crying.)

At first, I thought that my friends didn't care about me at all, but man was I wrong. Even when they probably wanted to celebrate all of their victories, they realized that I was having a rough time and tried to help me through the tough time. I realized that I might have been rejected from things that I wanted, but I had a better deal with friends and family by my side helping me, and I couldn't have asked for anything else.