I never thought that the relationship that started in high school would end after my first semester of college. Long distance relationships are rough and hard to keep, especially when you and your partner are in college in different states. College changes you, especially when you're not near home and you're in a place where no one knows you and you know no onesWWlLdLBT

Leaving for School 

When the time came for me to leave for school, it was rough. My boyfriend didn't help with the process of leaving because it took him awhile to realize that I would be leaving and I wasn't going to be in state. Since it took him awhile to accept the fact that I wasn't going to be instate, I started to regret accepting the opportunity to run. As the day for me to leave came closer, it became harder and harder to say see ya later. Then the day came, and it was rough. 

Time Zone Change 

The school I chose to go to was an hour ahead, compared to the school he chose. So, that meant there were a lot of late night phone calls, but I didn't mind because I would still be up doing homework. Weekends were a bliss because I didn't mind staying up unless I had race or something important the next day. Being an hour ahead would screw me up though because I would be going to sleep at an unreasonable hour, but for him it was reasonable. 

Free Time?

Now this one was the biggest difference. I am a student-athlete, so that means a lot of what I do revolves around my sport. Even the time I took my classes revolved around my sport. Every day I would have practice at 4 PM and depending on the day we would either get out at 5 or at 6. But with him, he was done with his day whenever his last class of the day would end. He would have more time to do homework, but I didn't. Some days it would throw me off because he would be done with his day and I would still have to go to work before practice. 

Different Schedules

When you start a relationship in high school, most of the time its usually with someone who has the same or similar schedule as you. For me, it was that we were both athletes, even though I was a full-year and he was a 2 sport athlete. Either way we still had a similar schedules. But when we got to college, I still had a student-athlete schedule and he didn't have that schedule anymore. So he had more time to do other stuff, while I didn't have that much time anymore. 

We had nothing in common anymore. 

Since we had two different schedules now, and we could no longer keep conversations going. Most of what we use to talk about, we no longer talked about. Since I went to college out-of-state, I changed differently, than he did since he went to an in-state college. I was the first to realize that we were different. 

I truly did love him, but I was the one to lose my feelings for him. He tried very hard to keep our relationship going, but for me I no longer felt the same way he did. I slowly started to outgrow my feelings for him. When we no longer had anything in common and I started hanging out with different people, I realized I could no longer had feeling for him. I know it is a sad story of someone outgrowing their feelings for another person, but it happens and it something that you cannot control. Trying to control your feelings is like trying to keep a volcano from erupting; you know at some point the volcano will erupt, but for your feelings they can change, like they can deepen or you could lose them. It was sad to realize that I no longer had feelings, but it was something I knew I could not control. In the end, I was the one that ended the relationship because I did not have to the guts to keep hurting him because I didn't feel the same way he did.