We would all be lying if we said we lived a life without fear. Everyone is scared of something or some one. What if questions fill our brains as we fear the unknown. What if i am not good enough? What if I am not skinny enough? What if I am too skinny? What if I don't get the job? What if I can't pay for school? What if? These questions fill our hearts and we start to doubt our abilities.
Personally, one of my biggest fears is the idea of being alone. I feel empowered when I am around others. They give me a sense of comfort and reassurance. I almost begin to feel panicked when I am alone. My body feels uneasy like I am not in control anymore. The fear has taken over me.
Recently, I have been living in a college dorm single room. It is a nightmare for a person who hates being alone. The first weeks were hard on me because I just missed having someone there. I mean I loved the fact that I was never trying to plan things around another person, or worrying if I was going to wake them up. But laying down to go to sleep at night it was just me and my wondering mind.
The past few weeks the Lord has been pulling at my heart to remember I am never alone because he is always there. He loves me and will never stop loving me. I don't need to worry if I am going to end up with a husband or if I will be single my whole life. I don't need to stress about my appearance or how much money I have. I only need to remember that the Lord is always with me. He is never going to leave me wondering on my own.
I think we all need the reminder to live life trying to fear less. We can't be brave on our own, but with the Lord He will speak to our hearts bring us the comfort we needed in the first place.
