"Eat A Cheeseburger"

"Eat A Cheeseburger"

The struggles of being skinny.
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Eat a cheeseburger, and then what? Magically gain all the weight you think I need? As if it were that simple.

"I wish I was that skinny." No, you don't. Constantly being picked up and treated like a rag doll--that's a constant reminder of how small you are. I just want to be seen as normal, not for being skinny.

“Oh look I can fit two hands around his throat," my 'friends' say as they pretend to choke me. Do you still wish you could be this skinny? Don't get me wrong--I love my body. That is, until I hear "Have you seen him, he looks so sick," and it gets harder and harder to like the skin that I am in.

I mean, I get it. I was only 88 pounds when I went to college and now I weigh 107--still not a lot. When I hit 100 for the first time in my life, only a few months ago, I actually cried because I thought maybe the judgment would end. It hasn't. People acted as if I wanted or asked to be this skinny.

Growing up, I was constantly reminded of my weight and how flat chested I am. In 5th grade, I was asked if I was anorexic. I didn't even know what that meant. I am 18, almost 19, and I still fit in the kid's section for every part of my outfit. I had to find a nice outfit for one of my classes my first semester. That was one of the hardest things because I didn't fit in most adult clothes and the kid's section does not normally have suits or nice dress outfits. It can be so embarrassing to have to shop in the younger sections when you just want to shop in the adult section.

Every time I would go to the doctor and step on the scale, I would be brought down by the number I would see on that little screen. Next, would come the infamous question "Am I healthy?" or "How can I gain weight?" I am sure my doctor was sick of hearing them. But I just did not get why I was so skinny. I ate a lot, I laid around. I did not know what I was doing wrong. Of course, when I explained this to people I would get "Be thankful you're so skinny." I hated that line. Why should I be thankful for something that feels like a curse? Constantly being teased for something I cannot control.

I guess I am just bitter, but can you blame me? Often my family’s remark of my body were more detrimental to my body image than anything. But, through all of that, there are some positives. For example, I can eat whatever I want and gain little to no weight. But, by far, my favorite positive to being small is that I can fit in small places. Whenever I would get scared, I could just hide in a small space.

I know most people think I have it easy and that bigger people are the unlucky ones, but maybe think about this article next time you encounter a tiny person.

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8 Reasons Why My Dad Is the Most Important Man In My Life

Forever my number one guy.
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Growing up, there's been one consistent man I can always count on, my father. In any aspect of my life, my dad has always been there, showing me unconditional love and respect every day. No matter what, I know that my dad will always be the most important man in my life for many reasons.

1. He has always been there.

Literally. From the day I was born until today, I have never not been able to count on my dad to be there for me, uplift me and be the best dad he can be.

2. He learned to adapt and suffer through girly trends to make me happy.

I'm sure when my dad was younger and pictured his future, he didn't think about the Barbie pretend pageants, dressing up as a princess, perfecting my pigtails and enduring other countless girly events. My dad never turned me down when I wanted to play a game, no matter what and was always willing to help me pick out cute outfits and do my hair before preschool.

3. He sends the cutest texts.

Random text messages since I have gotten my own cell phone have always come my way from my dad. Those randoms "I love you so much" and "I am so proud of you" never fail to make me smile, and I can always count on my dad for an adorable text message when I'm feeling down.

4. He taught me how to be brave.

When I needed to learn how to swim, he threw me in the pool. When I needed to learn how to ride a bike, he went alongside me and made sure I didn't fall too badly. When I needed to learn how to drive, he was there next to me, making sure I didn't crash.

5. He encourages me to best the best I can be.

My dad sees the best in me, no matter how much I fail. He's always there to support me and turn my failures into successes. He can sit on the phone with me for hours, talking future career stuff and listening to me lay out my future plans and goals. He wants the absolute best for me, and no is never an option, he is always willing to do whatever it takes to get me where I need to be.

6. He gets sentimental way too often, but it's cute.

Whether you're sitting down at the kitchen table, reminiscing about your childhood, or that one song comes on that your dad insists you will dance to together on your wedding day, your dad's emotions often come out in the cutest possible way, forever reminding you how loved you are.


7. He supports you, emotionally and financially.

Need to vent about a guy in your life that isn't treating you well? My dad is there. Need some extra cash to help fund spring break? He's there for that, too.

8. He shows me how I should be treated.

Yes, my dad treats me like a princess, and I don't expect every guy I meet to wait on me hand and foot, but I do expect respect, and that's exactly what my dad showed I deserve. From the way he loves, admires, and respects me, he shows me that there are guys out there who will one day come along and treat me like that. My dad always advises me to not put up with less than I deserve and assures me that the right guy will come along one day.

For these reasons and more, my dad will forever be my No. 1 man. I love you!

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The Life Of A Curvy Girl Is Very Exciting

To every curvy girl out there, share your curves as a positive outcome to your circumstances

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Have you ever noticed in all the magazines, blogs, and TV it shows a thin size woman? In all the entertainment I take in, there was always a skinny woman. It brought down my self-esteem, and I would try to starve myself, yet it doesn't help. However, what if I was meant to be a curvy girl?

Before I go any further, I know that God gave me this body to take of it. But what if I was meant to be this size so, I can touch others who feel negative towards their bodies? For every curvy woman, you are so beautiful!!

Throughout my life, I wasn't thin. I had a gut. I had thighs. I was very unhappy with myself. Yet, I look at the expectations and what people will be happy with. But if there is one thing I realized, its that people are temporary. The naysayers in your life are not set in gold. They will push you to make sure that you're happy with yourself. I truly believe if people look at me weird, that means I'm doing an amazing job with not conforming in the world but transforming in the renewing of the mind. By the way, that's Romans 12:2 in the bible!

When it comes to the curves, I'm truly grateful for them. There are some positives to having a curvy body. For one, when it comes to wearing jeans, it shapes you well. The curves pop and the haters bow down! Other than that, I truly love how I look in jeans! Another positive thing about curves, its that there are amazing clothes for us! I was on Facebook the other day, and I saw a company called Dia&Co.; Dia&Co; is a customized clothing company for plus sized women which has all the styles. When I saw the clothes, I was truly amazed. The colors and the material of the clothes were truly special.

What defines beauty? Is it makeup or having a model's body? Is it buying the most expensive clothes as a statement? I'm here to tell you those are not the definitions of beauty. The true definition of beauty is acceptance. Accepting the circumstances, even if other people say so. True beauty is waking up with a smile on your face for living another day and finding your purpose in life. Beauty is being you!

To all of you curvy women out there in the world, you are truly a blessing. Thank you for standing out of the normal and taking a step to give others the courage to becoming their selves. I learned to treat my body with the utmost respect. I must learn to take care of it and embrace it at the same time. Psalms 139:14 says, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well." So, Instead of me being a worried progress, God made me a working progress, because all things work together for good.

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