Depression's Sorrow And Hope

Depression's Sorrow And Hope

There is hope in the darkness.
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There are a lot of things to joke about, but depression is not one of them.

Being a person who suffers from depression has a deeper mean on your life than what most people think. People who are depressed are trapped in a world unlike the world that anyone else is perceiving. To them, the world is dark, hopeless, has no meaning…

And it never gets any better.

Imagine waking up on the day after a breakup. Life now seems impossible. The world is dark. You seem to have no hope. What are you going to do with yourself? You look at your phone and know there is no good morning text from the significant other. There is a feeling of despair deep in your stomach. In your mind, you don’t know how anything could ever be good again.

Imagine this feeling being what you experience every day. Every morning. Every night. Despair. Hopelessness. Loneliness. And the feeling that it will never improve.

A lot of people describe depression as a feeling of drowning. I can personally say that this is the most accurate physical description I have ever seen. Depression is falling into the deep end with no hope of getting out.

Depression is losing hope.

Depression is darkness.

Depression is suffocation.

If you have never experienced this emotion, you may not understand how truly oppressive it is. But it crushes the soul and mind. It forces a person into isolation. It brings out insecurities that will not cease to punish your ego.

According to the Anxiety and Depression Association of America, 40 million adults (meaning a person that is eighteen years of age or older) suffer from depression. In total, that is 18% of our population.

I am one of those.

For multiple years, I spent day after day drowning in a sea of emotion that I could not control. It was a time in my life where reflection is a time of despair. Most of the time, I spent my afternoons in the dark, in bed, and alone.

The thing I want to let everyone know about depression is that it is not hopeless. There is a light at the end of every tunnel.

Experiencing depression may suffocate you for a time being, but it is not the end of the world. When someone is depressed, it is important for them to not lose hope. To not drown. To not become trapped in their emotional devastation.

If you are depressed, reach out for help. Saying that you are in the deep is nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, addressing your emotional state is one of the greatest signs of strength that a person can show. There is never a time that saying you need a helping hand to pull you out of the deep will be a burden.

I believe that one of the greatest stigmas about depression in society is that it is a sign of weakness. Living with depression is a sign of strength. Living a life of sadness is a battle that you have no hope in winning and if you continue the battle, you are a real warrior.

One of the greatest choices that I made was to reach out for help. Opening up about the emotional state that I was in at the time when my depression was at its darkest point saved me from ultimately drowning in the water.

There are a plenty of people in the world who are ready to help. Even though depression feels like a state of being alone, it is not. There is a community of people ready to surround you and help you out.

One of the problems everyone with depression has to face is that it never permanently goes away. Depression is a lifelong battle. Even after you find a way out of the deepest parts of despair, there is always another day to tackle. This is part of what makes those with depression true warriors.

The hope for depression is that you are never alone. No matter how dark it may seem, there are always people in your life who want to help you.

I learned through my experience with depression that my mother was always wanting to reach out and help me. There was never a moment in my life when she did not want to support me. I had not realized that when I was drowning in my emotions. I was lost in emotions that made it unbearable to consider the fact that someone could care about what I was going through.

My mother has been my support through each wave of depression since I have started treatment. She understands that it is important to have the unconditional support and love in my life to help realize that the feelings I experience do not have to define my day to day life. She has helped me to realize that despite the emotional turmoil that I go through, I am able to live a happy and successful life.

Living with depression, I have the ability to tell you that there is hope of living a happy life. As I have gone through my first month of college, I have learned that happiness is just around the corner in life. Even though I experienced a variety of negative emotion in high school, now that I am in college I see that there is happiness all around me.

There is always a way to happiness in your life. What you must remember is to find your own happiness. Let it absorb the water that is drowning you and soak up the sunshine in life.

Cover Image Credit: Therese Borchard

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Goodbye To The Boy Who Sexually Assaulted Me, You Can Never Hurt Me Again

In 30 minutes you turned my life around.

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*Content Warning: Sexual Assault*

You destroyed me.

You took away my innocence.

You were able to take away my dreams and aspirations.

You were able to shut me down in ways I didn't know to be possible.

In 30 minutes you turned my life around.

Broken trust, that is what you left me with. A broken sense of stability and love. Sometimes I sit and wonder why you thought it was okay to take advantage of me? Why it was okay to hit, and belittle me? You had me left feeling foreign to my own body.

But then I realize it is not my fault, it is yours. This is not a cry for help or an avenue to get attention this is me raising awareness that not only did you hurt me but others are experiencing the same thing you put me through.

My innocence was taken by you without consent. I sat in my room for hours after that night thinking of ways to end the life I was given. I spent countless nights waking up screaming with tears rushing down my face. I spent the majority of my future relationships scared of ever letting myself feel again. I was forced to take avenues of help like therapy appointments and trying different depression medicines. All of this resulted from the 30 minutes you could not control yourself.

Yes, you destroyed me. But now I'm stronger than ever, you will never be able to hurt me again.

With all of the pain and endless nights of contemplating my reason to live, I found strength, I found a way to share my voice and help others experiencing this pain. I am stronger now than I ever thought possible.

I wake up every day now appreciating the things in life that matter most to me, like the love my boyfriend has for me, the amazing family I am blessed with, and the amazing friends that helped me through this experience. I have learned that fighting for my life was worth it and I was not going to let you take that away from me.

I will not stop sharing my story, I have learned that sharing my experiences of sexual assault has let others feel less alone in the scary process that you, unfortunately, put me through. What you did to me was not okay. But through this, I have understood and realized my worth in this crazy rollercoaster we call life.

I found strength in the moments you made me the weakest, and I'm no longer looking back.

I have hope that other survivors will understand that their life is just as valuable. There is a bigger fight for happiness and finding it is not always the easiest but the journey getting there is worth it.

You ARE strong.

You ARE worth it.

It's NOT your fault.

You're NOT alone.

If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline — 1-800-273-8255

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