This might sound strange, as I have had 18 years to fully find myself, but I have finally blossomed into the person that I always hoped to be. For the longest time, my life was masqueraded by what others wanted from me until I moved into college. Having this first true taste of freedom gave me space and atmosphere to become my happiest.

When I say "taking back my life," I mean that in a way that is not negative. I was never in a controlling relationship. I was given a decent amount of freedom growing up. I am saying that I am living the truest life I can. As of right now, I live my life with no walls up. Whoever meets me can view my heart on my sleeve. A large part of this journey has been realizing that I need to allow others to see this real me right off the bat. I show my quirky side, joke around, and take everything in stride. I live a judgment-free life, much like Planet Fitness.

In this time, I have found my true passions. Not only has my outlook on life changed, but it has opened multiple doors of opportunity. I have realized that I not only enjoy providing happiness for myself but seeing others happy has filled a hole in my heart. It has inspired me to go after my dream of being in the music therapy field. Knowing that I could provide happiness for others for the rest of my life gives me such a euphoric feeling that words cannot even begin to explain. If I had not gone down this path, I wouldn't be on the road to success.

It is also the time that I am focusing on my health, both mental and physical. Since leaving for college, I have taken up sports and enjoyed going to the gym. I am also taking "mental health" days, which everyone should take at some point. Taking a day to focus on your mind and emotions is such a therapeutic way to center yourself, all the while giving you some peace and quiet in such a hectic environment.

Through this road of self-discovery, friends have come and go, and it has become clear to me who my true friends are. I've dealt with some who would rather gain something other than friendship. I've met others who would rather pursue other interests that could be damaging. Even though my friends aren't perfect, we understand our quirks and understand that we'll never be perfect. If anything, I'd love to thank them for being there for me as I took this self-journey. Never once was there any judgment, only encouragement.

Now, this is not the end of my journey. I am not done evolving, as I have more time to grow and learn, but this first stepping stone is leading me down a path to my happiest life.