Dear Pop Pop,
I miss you. I miss you a lot. My memories are so vague I am starting to forget what your face looks like. You left this earth all too soon. I am 19 years old now, 20 in August. I know it is crazy right? I was just a little girl when you left. I graduated high-school and I am almost done with my first year in college. Yes, I made it to college, who would have thought right? I have a boyfriend too, he is really nice and I love him, I think you would have liked him. I could go back through all the years and tell you everything that has happened to me, but that is just far too much.
I think what I miss the most is feeling the excitement I felt when mom and dad said we were going over to your house. I loved coming to see you. Miss that I can't do that anymore. Friends my age still have their grandparents around, they get to go see their grandparents on the holidays or for Sunday dinners.
It breaks my heart that I had so few with you and even fewer that I can remember. I can look at pictures and point out who is who, but I can't remember when that picture was taken or how old I was. I do have few memories though, like when you fed me and my sister ice cream for breakfast, or told all of us that if we didn't brush our teeth our teeth would grow curly, and that one time you found all my sour skittles in the couch after you took a nap.
Over time, as I came over to see you, you would measure my height on the wall to see if I had grown anymore. One time you even let me paint your nails and put stick on earrings on your ears. For some reason the song "Dance the Night Away" always reminded me of you, and I have no idea why.
You believed in heaven and I know that is where you are now. Up there dancing with the angels looking down at all of us. I know you smile when you see all of us having fun, I bet you snicker when I make an idiotic mistake. I bet sometimes you wish you were still here with us, got the chance to see all your grandchildren grow up in to beautiful adults, and believe me we all wish that too.
I guess there is just so much I wish I could do with you today. Like lunch dates, or holiday cookie baking or shopping sprees, maybe showing you around my college campus, and introducing you to all my friends, maybe even come to my future wedding, even though that is still some odd years down the road. I want you too be here and see all that I have become. I am not angry that you are gone, I am angry that God took you so soon and didn't let me have those experiences with you. I'd say I have a pretty awesome life, but if I could change one thing it would be to have you here, so I can know what it is like to grow up the grandparents.
I know I will see you again someday, I just hope you can recognize me! Until then keep looking down and be my guardian angel. Don't party too much up there.
Love You Pop Pop,
Natalie
