Hey there,
I don’t know you yet but I just want to let you know that I already love you. My heart has a hole in it right now and you hold that missing piece, so I hope you are taking care of it. Sometimes when I’m at my lowest and feeling bad about myself, that hole in my heart hurts, but I know there is a plan for everything in my life. I know that God has already written my life plan and I know he’s put you into it, but sometimes it’s hard to wait when it seems like everyone around me are in happy relationships and getting engaged. But I’m trying my best to be patient and wait for you.
As I sit here and write this, I can’t help but wonder what walk of life you are experiencing. Sometimes I wonder if you are already in my life. If you are, I hope we are nice to each other, but if not, hey that would make for a good story to tell when we grow old. If you aren’t already in my life, I hope that when we do meet it’s good and that we can have a good story to tell our grandchildren, even if we meet as friends. I hope that God has given you a good life and that you haven’t had too many struggles that you’ve had to deal with. I know life gets hard, that is inevitable, but I just hope that you’ve had a good life so far.
I have all these questions about you rolling around in my head. Are you older than me, or am I the older one? How many years apart are we? Are you currently in college like I am? Who’s your favorite band? What’s your favorite color? Are you a night owl or a morning person? Do you like the same type of movies that I do? Probably not, I like those typical chick flicks, but if you do, that’s even better we can have movie dates all the time then.
I hope that the people in your life right now are treating you as they should be. I hope you have strong relationship with your family and friends. My family and friends are pretty important to me, so I pray that are important to you too as well. If there is a girl that currently holds your heart, I hope she is carrying your heart with care. She’s not just holding your heart, she’s holding something that is very important to me and I hope that it’s in one piece when I get the honor of having it.
I scared that I’m not going to be the woman that you’ve been looking for. I’m scared that I will not be able to live up to the expectations of a wife that you have. I’m scared that I will not be able to handle all that comes with being married. I’m scared that I might hate you at times. I’m scared that I will let the fears and doubts cloud my mind and walk out on you. I know that there might be times where we feel like we can’t do it anymore. There might be times when we question why God put us in each other’s lives. But I know, with the strength from God, we will be able to overcome those challenges life gives to us. I cannot wait to experience everything that God and life has to offer to the both of us. I don’t know when or where I will be when God lets you walk into my life, but I hope and pray that when you do, I am ready for you to come into my life.
All my love.
