To the girls that used to be my best friends,
I regret many things about our friendship. I regret that I spent 10 years thinking that we would be friends forever. I regret thinking you two were the only friends I needed. I regret expecting you guys to be there for me when things got rough and getting disappointed when you didn't. I regret getting so caught up in our friendship, that I never made time for any more friends. I regret letting you both talk me out of doing things I was passionate about. I regret that I let you bring me down and hold me back from reaching my potential in high school. I regret that I gave you two so much power over my feelings and self-worth. I regret that I let your negativity turn me into the person I am trying to change today.
I regret the mistakes I made that pushed you guys away.
However, I don't regret the years we spent growing close. I don't regret the memories we made and the laughs we shared. I don't regret the countless sleepovers we had, especially the ones where we stayed up all night just talking about life. I don't regret the times I called you in the middle of the night for advice about the boy I wanted to talk to or what outfit I should wear tomorrow. I don't regret the times we went to concerts and sang in the car at the top of our lungs. I don't regret going to all of the games to support the two of you. I don't regret being your biggest fan. I don't regret helping you get over your parent's divorce. There were times when you needed me and I was there, no matter what I had to sacrifice, and I don't regret that at all. I don't regret the parties and holidays we shared together. I don't even regret the time right before everything went wrong.
I don't regret being your best friend.
I learned about life and myself, with you two by my side and I will forever be grateful for that. I learned everything about the both of you and you both learned everything about me. I learned that girls can grow so close that they practically become sisters. You showed me that people you've known your entire life can just walk away without a reason or word. In the end, I learned that some friendships are not supposed to last for forever. Instead, some friendships only last a little and that's not a bad thing.
I hope and pray every day that you two accomplish everything we used to talk about and more. I hope that you find men who treat you right. I hope that you two stay as close as you are now. I hope that one day you will tell your children about our friendship and how much it meant to you. I hope that you know how much I still care about you.
With lots of love,
Your Ex-Best Friend
