I have contemplated numerous times about all the things I would say to you if I were ever able to sit down with you and just speak. However, right now, all I would love to say to you is thank you.
I want to thank you for telling me that I have no common sense, that I am stupid, and that I will never be anything more than someone’s baby mother. I want to thank you for telling me that I can’t, that I will never, and that I am not good enough. Most people’s motivational quotes are verses from the Bible, while my motivational quotes are the words you would say to me. I had heard those words so many times that I believed them myself. The day I was taken out of your house is the day I started regaining my strength.
The first Father’s Day after we stopped communicating, I had a soft heart. I was about to leave for my first semester at school. I texted you “Happy Father’s Day” to which you responded, “You must have the wrong number.” You disclaimed me as your daughter. That is what prompted me to prove you wrong in everything you ever told me. Without you shutting me out, I would not have the drive in me that I do today.
Thank you, “dad,” for being there with me when I study in the library until 4am, when you telling me “you have no common sense” would play in my head when I just couldn’t get that Sapling problem correct. Thank you for helping me realize that writing is something that I love, being able to share my experiences with others is something I love to do. Thank you for putting so much negativity in my life that I am able to find positivity in the little things. Every time I get frustrated or want to give up, I remember how you hurt me and I persevere.
I have experienced so many amazing things since you stopped being in my life, and that is only because I was able to move on. I cannot wait to see where life will take me, and if I am to one day become successful, I want you to know that you are the reason why. Without you doubting me and bringing my self-esteem to the lowest points, I would never have as much devotion and passion as I do to prove you wrong.
The Daughter You Wish Wasn’t Yours