Hey, Anxiety,

I've been trying to write this for awhile and it is now time that I do so. I'm letting go of you. I never thought I'd write anything like this, but here I am. I've actually been waiting for this moment for more than 2 years. You popped into my life randomly and you dragged me down into a terrifying dark place. I thought that feeling this way was where I was supposed to be. You're so cruel. So abusive. You took everything away from me.

Sometimes I even felt like I was letting you in a way, and sometimes it seemed like I was enjoying it. It was like sadness wasn't something I wanted to let go of. I didn't realize how toxic you really are. You stole everything from me. You tore me away from my friends. You made me push out some of my family. You made me feel so alone, empty, worthless, weak. You were like a drug. I was addicted to you. There was no cure that I saw. It's so hard for others to understand this because they can't see it or feel it. They can't see how much you tore away from me. But I actually started to get away from you, and then I missed you.

Being sad was always a big fear of mine. Then, when you came into my life, that was all I felt every single day. So I didn't want to let go, and that's what people don't get. Anxiety; it traps you, steals you. Makes you feel absolutely horrible. It's like you're sick and nothing will ever be the same. But I realize I'm not a horrible person and I'm not sick. I realize things do change. Constantly. For years I felt like I was standing alone. I didn't have any hope I wasn't even living. I was just simply surviving and existing. But now, it;s time to let you go for good. I've found people who care and love me. I've found places that I can call home. I've found happiness in actually getting up. I've found things to enjoy. I've found things that I used to think were impossible for me. Sorry, anxiety, but you don't win. You don't get to ruin me anymore. You don't get to take people away from me anymore. I'm letting you go because I've finally figured out how to be sad AND happy. And I'm okay with it. Because as someone once said "the bigger the storm, the brighter the rainbow." You watered me so much, which only made me brighter, and I finally believe that.

Goodbye, Anxiety.