Everyone has a childhood best friend, some might not talk to them everyday and some might not want to remember who their childhood best friend was. I am blessed to have my best friend in my life every day and am able to talk to him everyday. He's not only my childhood best friend, but he is also my soulmate.
Second grade is where it all started, we were best friends. Funny thing was that at that time I was the one who had a huge crush on him but he was the biggest jerk to me (okay not that big of a jerk, but still). We got separated that year and we kinda lost touch but every time we saw one another it's like we were never separated in the first place. I went on to third grade and he stayed, and that's how it's been all our lives.
Jr. high was when it all started again, we were inseparable and many thought we were dating. This time he was the one who had the biggest crush on me and I was the jerk. He became my best friend, the friend I would tell everything to; relationships, school, family, etc. No matter how much he cared for me and wanted to be that guy he never forced things, he simply was just my best friend.
We fought like a couple and acted like one at times, which really confused people, but we still were just best friends. There were times when we would stop talking to one another simply because we hated who one was dating. Once we would break up with that person we would talk to each other and say, "I told you so" and laugh.
It was my freshman year and his 8th grade year that we got really close even though I hated who he was dating. We got close because he was in my Quince court and well he was one of the two that I really trusted. I am so glad he was a part of my court because on my big day he was the one that made sure I always had a smile on my face and enjoyed every second that day.
Since then we became closer than ever. I knew he still had strong feelings about me but I didn't, I still saw him as my best friend. I still told him about all my relationships and he practically was with me through all them. He was that person I went to cry on and I went to vent to. No matter how much it hurt him he listened and gave me the best advice he could give me without getting in between.
The days I realized what I had right in front of me were those last days of my junior year. I was probably going through the most hardest break up and I was crying in class, something I've never done. He was there, listening, but when I looked up at him I saw tears and anger in his eyes something I had never seen. It was then when I realized what I've had in front of me this whole time.
Through out all of those years he was so patient and calm. Not once did he ever try to force things, not even when he knew I was single. He listened through out every relationship, opened his arms for me to cry in, and always put a smile afterwards.
He still didn't ask me out for a long time, and yes we went through that talking stage even though we knew what one felt for the other. Now after almost two years of dating I can say he still is my best friend. We have gone through some very tough times, and there are times we shouldn't have gone through but we have found a way to get through it all. He hasn't stopped listening, caring, having his arms open for me to cry in, or stopped putting a smile on my face.
I think if he would of asked me out any time sooner things wouldn't have worked out. Now I just want to tell him, thank you. Thank you for loving me the way you do, for being there for me in my darkest times, for being one of my #1 fans, for pushing me past my limits and fears, thank you for still being my childhood best friend. I also want to apologize for those hard times I made us go through, for hurting you at times with my actions and words, and for anything else. I can truly say I am in love with you!
Here's to many more days, months, and hopefully years!
