You woke me up with a pressure to my head
A pit in my stomach
And a dizziness in my step
I should be happy this week
My best friend comes home
And thanksgiving is my favorite holiday
But you took over unexpected
Told me that the change in routine was bad
Made me feel paralyzed
I spent so long getting rid of you
Trying medication and seeing a therapist
Adding positivety to my schedule
None of this mattered to you
You needed the power
And so again I lose control
And perhaps this time you will leave sooner
Maybe this time I will be the judge of my emotion
But right now none of this matters
Because right now
No matter how hard I try
anxiety holds me captive.





















