I was always told I was a "Daddy's Girl" even though "Daddy" was hardly around. I would always get told "you look just like your dad" and to me that meant a lot because I had such a huge place in my heart for my him. I never got to share a birthday with him it was always a day or couple days later. Christmas and other holidays weren't the same because they weren't spent together. I always wanted YOU an craved attention from you even when my mom was trying to fill the hole that you created. For some reason I wanted nothing but you. But the worst part about it is that you broke my heart before any other guy got the chance to. You set an already downward spiral in my expectation of what real men where supposed to be. Don't get me wrong I have no hate in my heart for you nor do I plan to in the future. I love you regardless of the things you did or didn't do for me. Please don't feel bad and give me your pitty or apologies. It will not make any difference now for what happened in the past and i have already forgiven you to be honest. You are my father and always will be and I would never want to change that. I am however disappointed in all things I didn't have with you. Like father daughter stuff or picking me up from school or sharing holidays together. I feel like I missed out on so much but at the same time I feel like it taught me a lot. I taught myself how to tie my shoes and how to ride a bike all on my own. All the things you said you'd teach me, I taught myself. It taught me independence and how to grow up. So if I have had to redo it all I wouldn't. Thank you for what you DID teach me and all the things I learned while searching for something to fill the void you left. I'm grateful for all the obstacles it brought and I'm proud of who I've become.