Life should be the crazy one, not me.

In life there will always be labels. If you are feeling sad you're depressed, if you are just moody then you're bipolar, and there are many more labels. Life has these labels because everyone wants to be that "perfect" person.

Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but there is no such thing as a perfect person.

I have always dealt with my inner and outer demons for as long as I can remember. Such as I am insecure with my looks, and trying to show everyone I am okay when I'm not. I didn't want to a perfect person that everyone else wanted but I wanted to be the perfect me.

I got a big slap in the face (not literally), to show me that in life no matter what you do it will never be perfect.

I have always kept my schedule busy with no free time; mainly because I didn't want to be left alone with my own thoughts. I have been dealing with a lot lately. I will one minute be my bubbly happy self and the next I am crying over something so stupid. Since I don't know why this happens to me I feel like I am crazy.

I wish I didn't go through these funks that I do for no reason. But it's something that actually makes me feel alive. I go through life doing my routine like always; non stop. When I have these feelings after I get through it I actually feel so much better.

I'm not one to open up. I actually never open up but after going through all this on my own I realized maybe it's time to finally open up. I was nervous to talk to my parents because I already felt crazy for not knowing what was wrong, I didn't want them to think I was crazy. But after talking with them I actually felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I learned that it's not me that's crazy, it's life that's crazy. But if life wasn't crazy then where would the fun be?