My grandma passed away about a year ago. She was my best friend and biggest inspiration. My life changed completely when she passed away. She died of lung cancer and fought hard every second. I only met her about 9 years ago, but she was the first person I connected to on a different level.

She was my absolute best friend. She's been gone for a year. There are so many things I would say to her if heaven wasn't so far away. I would tell her every little detail about life and everything that has happened, just like I did before. I would tell her about all the crazy things that have happened.

I would talk to her for hours about my best friend Maddy. They didn't get to meet before she passed.

I would tell her how much I miss her and how I cannot go a single day without thinking about her.

I would ask her about her time up there and what it was like.

I'm sure she would go on and on about seeing God and Jesus and being able to talk to them in person. She would talk about them and how glad she is to be there with them. She would speak light for hours.

She would ask me about my family and how we were all doing and ask about birthdays and holidays and just our lives. I'm almost positive that she would also ask about my love life and who I was seeing.

I can go through every conversation in my head with her and it makes me want to cry. I miss her so much. It sometimes doesn't seem real that she is gone. She was and still is my best friend. I wish I could say that I have learned how to cope and deal, but I can't because I have not learned.

The last thing I would say to her is how much I love her.

It is still so unreal to think she is gone out of my life. I cannot wrap my head around it yet. I am trying, though.

I love you so much, Grandma! I miss you a ton!

In memory of Mary Margaret Britton, January 3, 1947 - October 7, 2015