Social media has become such a negative dark aura in my life lately and I’m sure I’m not the first that has felt this way. At first, when social media outlets such as Instagram and SnapChat started coming into my life I did the most to be known as a cool person or to try to show off who I was as a person and it was not who I really internally was as a person. For example on Instagram I, as many others only post what I want others to know about my life. I can always post smiling pictures, posted pictures pretending that my life is perfect but in reality it in no way shape or form is. That has started to hurt me. For my relationships with friends, or family, or even significant others it is not a positive thing.

Sometimes when going out I would start saying things like “yes let's go there I need a new Instagram picture!”. How in any way is that okay? I miss when social media was not as big as it is now. What happened to the times where no one would even take pictures and just enjoy the moment? We are so submerged in the idea of being liked by others that we start making up a fake world in our head. I see it all the time with relationships on social media. Many couples I know that fight very often and are in toxic relationships always posts pictures of them doing such amazing things smiling when inside I know that they must be hurting.

To make one happy we have to start with ourselves and not try to make others accept us or make them want to feel, as we are happy if we are not. I'll be honest this beginning of November has been very hard for me and eliminating myself from social media has helped me, even if its just a little, but it has helped me realize that happiness has to start with finding myself and what makes me happy not what makes others happy. Something that my dad always tells me is to do things that keep me distracted and find a new happiness to invest in and for me right now it is having more girl time with my girlfriends and being surrounded by my family.

I hate when people say time heals all because it really doesn’t, it can take some people years to get over something but its until you defeat the problem that is hurting you and not pushing it away that makes you get over it. It’s telling yourself okay you are not happy because of “own example” and talking yourself through your own emotions to help you achieve back your happiness.

It is not about posting on social media or seeing others post that will make you happy because for me sometimes they make me miserable. A model can most a picture looking super fit in a tropical destination and I'll look in the mirror and just hate myself. That is not okay, it is not until you go to your dark place and fight your own demons that you will be okay one day. So take on my challenge and try to delete your social media apps or just stay away from them and see what impact it has in your life. Be happy with your bare necessities. Know that every day you have at least one person or more that loves you and that social media is just a mask of one's feelings because if you were truly happy you wouldn’t have to post about it 100 times, that is just you trying to convince yourself that you are.