I know it has not been too long since you were here with us. I know that just a mere 24 hours ago we were on the same universe; a part of the same planet. Yet, it feels so much longer. You were taken away far too soon. You had finally planted your seeds but did not have the chance to let them grow. If I had a chance to talk to you once more I would let you know that you were an inspiration to me.

Despite your difficult and dark times, your compassion and affection for your loved ones never dulled. There was never a time that your presence went unnoticed or your words of wisdom went unappreciated. I want you to know that when I am sad, my thoughts go back to our childhood. Our intense games of manhunt, the late night conversations, and (our favorite) the days at the park or the brook that seemed never-ending.

Your presence impacted me as it impacted many others and I hope that you know that. You underestimated how amazing you truly were. If you were here I know that you would beg for everyone to stop crying and to not be sad. You always looked for the positives in every situation even when there did not seem to be any. By following your example, I do not want to focus on the tragic details of what has happened. I want to remember our true years of innocence; the purest form of friendship that not all get to experience. I am so thankful that you were able to experience such a rarity; an unconditional love by young friends. You shared a special bond with every person that you came in contact with. Your best quality was your ability to care for your loved ones in such a way that each relationship that you had was so unique and different from the rest.

I want you to know that when you gained your angel wings, you took a piece of me with you. I think that you took a piece of all of your loved ones with you; some pieces larger than others. I want you to know that I am devastated you are gone, but I feel peace in knowing that you are freed from your demons. You were called home too soon but I know you will find your true calling in heaven. Even though we would lose contact every now and then, fate always had a way of bringing us back together for more laughs and good times. It will forever kill me to know that you will not be here to achieve milestones such as graduating college, buying your first house, or getting married. With that sadness comes a sense of happiness because I know you will be with all of your friends every step of the way.

Thank you for the memories, the laughs, and the hugs I will hold them with me forever. To my childhood friend gone too soon, we will meet again.

Rest in the sweetest of peace John "Bubba" Carter