"All I want is a guy best friend that I spend all of my time talking to and we're both in love with each other, but neither knows. So then, no one makes a move for ages, but then one night one of us cross a line and then we end up together." This is a proclamation I made to my best friend over a year and a half ago. Little did I know I would one day find myself in this exact situation.

I first met him in anatomy class. The very first words he said to me were: "I don't know who you are, but you seem like a nice person." Those words aren't relevant to the story, I just will never forget the first time I heard his voice.

I was dating another guy at the time, so I didn't pay attention to him for months. But one day, I looked up from my desk, and I saw the guy across from me like it was the first time. I saw someone that I wanted to know for the rest of my life.

I never made a move on him. Sometimes I regret that. Maybe if I had started pursuing him from the beginning, there wouldn't be these complications hindering me from telling him how I feel. We were barely even friends for the longest time, and I only talked to him during anatomy class everyday.

Eventually, we were lumped together in a group chat on snapchat, and let me tell you, I've never added anyone so fast. I started snapping him once every few days, and then that turned into every single day. Now, its rare that we ever stop talking.

One day we promised each other that if once of us were to ever catch feels, we would tell the other as soon as it happened. I remember he said: "Don't worry, it's highly unlikely." My heart dropped to the bottom of my chest. How do I come back from that?

Occasionally he calls me cute, or tells me he loves my smile. Every single time, I get butterflies. I want to tell him, "Don't flirt with me. Don't tell me that I'm pretty only to end up with someone else." But how can you say these things in normal conversation?

Sometimes I genuinely think that he wants me as well. I hear his laugh when we're up late on the phone together. I see the way he smiles when I tell him corny jokes.

People think that the scariest thing about unrequited love is your affections not being shared. But, for me, the worst part about being in love with him is what would happen if he did feel the same way? Being in a relationship with him could make my life infinitely better, but it could also destroy one of the best friendships I've ever had.