For the girl who just can't find someone to love her back,

You're not alone.

It seems like I have my ups and my downs. I don't know if I'm depressed or if I just have spells of loneliness. Whatever it is, it's a horrible feeling.

It seems like I keep coming across guys who I feel like I would be perfect with, but I'm guessing they don't feel the same. We will hang out a few times, and then all of a sudden, the good morning texts stop, Snapchats are ignored and not replied to, they unfollow me on Instagram, and I'm back to where I started. I'm back to laying in my bed staring blankly at my ceiling wondering what's wrong with me.

I'm back to desperately swiping through Bumble trying to get a match just so I have someone to talk to. I know it won't go anywhere, but it makes the lonely moments a little more bearable, because at least someone thinks I'm pretty.

I'm back to not loving myself. Waking up, looking in the mirror, and picking out all of my flaws to make me feel even worse about myself. I have days when I eat less than 1,000 calories and burn 500 of those at the gym. Starving, lightheaded, and nauseas because of this, but still feeling like I ate too much.

I also have days where I eat twice as much as a should to fill in the emptiness I have, and it helps for a minute, but not for long. In both scenarios, I still end up staring blankly at my ceiling with a feeling of pressure on my heart and an overall depressing feeling in the air.

And for some reason, I feel like if someone would just love me back, everything would be okay. I would be more confident. I wouldn't go to bed sad and wake up even sadder.

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of giving my all into someone and getting used, or even worse, getting nothing in return. I know I'm a good girl and would make a great girlfriend. I think even the guy knows I'm a good girl, but for some reason, never gives me a real chance. I can shower someone with love and not expect a single thing in return except for them to accept my love, and I end up feeling like I got trampled.

People tell me I'm beautiful and just haven't come across the right person. That doesn't give me anything except for false hope. I really don't know if I will ever come across the right person. Because while I see all of these beautiful couples out and about and all over the internet, I'm sitting in my room in my fuzzy pajama pants just wanting something like that.

For the girls going through the same thing, I know it's hard. Trust me, I know. It seems to be a never ending cycle for me and honestly, I don't know what to do. I could try to give you advice, but it would be lying to myself because I wouldn't even follow my own advice. Truly, it's a terrible feeling.

So the only thing I know to do is wait. Maybe swipe on Bumble a little to find someone to talk with in the mean time, but I'll just continue to wait. And all I know is that when I do come across that one person, they will be worth it all. Or, at least, that's what I'm telling myself.