There are times in our lives where we feel betrayed, unprotected, and heartbroken. Most individuals go through life changing things that will either make them weaker or stronger, and during the actual event, you’ll feel worthless and weak; we’ll feel like we aren’t worth anyone’s time and nobody will ever love us, because we tried our best and everything we worked for just fell apart. A majority of people usually get their heartbroken and don’t know what’s next. Well, it’s time to express it before it’s too late.

Dear The Guy Who Broke My Heart,

I was innocent, young, and ready to take on the world all by myself. I blinked for two seconds and out of the blue, you mysteriously showed up into my life. The moment I saw you I knew my life would change, I knew that my lifestyle would be completely different. I promised myself not to forget that I’m still young and ready for this amazing world ahead of me, but I broke my own promise because of you. Don’t get me wrong I was still innocent, but I didn’t feel like myself I felt like the world was spinning either too fast or too slow because you determined my world. I can’t believe I let someone determine how my life would be.

I gave you everything and all I ever got from you was betrayal, lies, and just excuses. All I ever wanted from you was to feel the way I did, because I gave you everything that made me feel special and made me so different from everyone else. You took away everything I had, but I wasn’t going to let you take my dignity and pride.

I’ll tell you the truth: I’ll always love you, and I’ll probably love you more than anyone else because everything we had was my first. People might say I’m too young, but I’m definitely not delusional: I know what love is and yes, I loved you; there’s a part of me that will always love you. You can never stop caring about someone you loved; it’s something we can’t explain but everyone feels this way.

I can admit you’re the reason I wasn’t able to date anyone, because I was always so hung up on you. I knew I still wanted you and always hoped that it would stay just us. Yes, for almost two years, you made me have sleepless nights and moments where if I heard a break-up song, I’d get emotional; no matter how much you made me cry, I’ll never let another guy make me feel that way at night or even when one of my favorite songs came on the radio. I might still think of you, but for now, I’m not going to let it affect my future relationships.

You still constantly text me when you want to see me, which is not so often; I notice your name on my phone and it feels like I’m suffocating because I know that you’re not asking me how I’m doing, you’re probably going to ask me “what are you up to, I’m free tonight hmu.” I will forever enjoy your pleasant text messages. Who am I kidding, if I could kick you every time you texted me and I felt stressed, I would be more sore than a soccer player after conditioning.

I just want to thank you for making me stronger, wiser, and wanting an actual commitment for the future. It obviously won’t be with you, but I’ll never know. All I know is next time, I will make wiser decisions, make sure no one stands in my way, and definitely not let a guy stop me from being happy. This is a scary world already, but darling you only made me stronger. You might have been my weakness, but no matter what, I made sure I overcame the struggle.