One day he walked into my life. UNEXPECTED! And one day he walked out!
He walked in with a smile! One that glistened from a mile away! He knew the right things to say! He made me laugh more than I thought I could! He made me smile bigger than the world! He didn't know I had feelings! I didn't realize I had feelings! I didn't realize they were strong.
He poked and probed until I told him I had feelings. I think I screwed up! Because he told me not to and instead of developing feelings, I fell hard!!!! He walked away! He didn't know how I felt or what I thought from then on out! I put a smile on and faced the day brave as I wished I had done before he asked that question.
Oh how that question is burned into my mind! My heart and soul ache everytime I think. He says he understands but does he really?! He knows all my secrets but does he know what this ones like! He's my best friend and I can't be honest with him! I support every decision he makes! I smile at every achievement happily even when it hurts! I smile when he smiles! I frown when he's hurting! But I can't tell him my biggest secret of all! I fell in love with him on day one and everyday it grows stronger!
One day, he'll actually understand! One day, he'll truly see me for me! One day, he will understand that I didn't mean to fall in love with him! One day, he will see that I want happiness, joy, and love for him! But in the meantime, my heart hearts. The heart wants what the heart wants! If only I could restart the clock!
The heart truly wants what the heart truly wants! We can't change that! Just remember sometimes it is gonna hurt, whether we want it to or not!
A Broken Heart