I think the main reason people love horror films is from the adrenaline rush they receive. The thrill is addicting. It feels absolutely amazing to just be thriving in an experience. The tingling and shaking hands. The lightheadedness and beads of sweat. You’re so alive. You can get the same feeling from making impulsive or abnormal decisions that deviate from your normal life.

A few weeks ago I booked a three week trip to Thailand. It is absolutely terrifying to think about traveling to another country alone. I could think about all the things that could go wrong: getting lost, losing my documents, running out of money. However, the likelihood of those things happening is slim to none. I have more faith in myself and my abilities than that. I’m not delusional or think those things couldn’t possibly happen, it's more than that, I am cautious and aware of my surroundings. The anxiety is not worth giving any energy to because I know the thrill of experiencing another culture will be worth way more than the possible negative outcomes.

Not only will I feel alive in Thailand, I will also learn many things about myself. Everything I do is an effort to get closer to my core. This past Friday the 13^th I got a tattoo. It came off a sheet of tattoos designed by the artist. If you didn’t know, most tattoo parlors do Friday the 13^th tattoo deals. The tattoo itself doesn’t really have a meaning, but the act of getting a tattoo is huge for me. I’ve known I wanted to get a cool cartoonish tattoo for a very long time. Yes, it is permanent. Yes, I might regret it one day. I just know it will always serve as a remembrance of a time in my life. A time where I would get a tattoo like this one.

I honestly know that it is important to be smart and make decisions regarding the future, but it’s far too easy to plan your entire life and not live in the present. When you know your schedule for every moment, of every day, for days on end, there is no quick thinking or personal growth. People need to challenge themselves and get out of their comfort zone. Going with the flow has been a focus on my mind lately. It’s terrifying, I had a moment a couple days ago where I started crying because I couldn’t have a concrete answer. I have to be okay with living and taking things as they come. I have to have faith in myself that I have the ability to handle whatever life throws at me.

All in all, as long as your impulsive decisions don’t hurt you or others around you, then I say go for it. Exercise an appropriate amount of caution. For example, this is my first tattoo so I put it in an inconspicuous place that people will not see unless I choose to reveal it. Be smart, be safe, but live your best life and don’t allow stress or anxiety to hold you back.