I just don't think you understand. You don't understand what happens to a person when you leave them for someone else. So I guess I have to explain. It makes the person you leave feel worthless.
When you left me for another girl, I felt like I wasn't good enough. It was as if you were telling me: "you're not enough, but she is". I felt like I was trash, just thrown away and replaced by something else. But you don't care.
I doubt you ever even gave me a second thought. You told me you were leaving, kicked me out of your life, went to the other girl and never thought about me again. You made me feel like I was nothing, you rocked my confidence. You got to go on with your life, with another girl, mind you, and you never cared about how deeply you hurt me.
Do you know what it feels like to be told you aren't good enough? Do you know what that does to someone? Can you even comprehend it? Probably not, because you threw me away like garbage after making me question whether or not my entire being was good enough.
Currently, I am rebuilding some of my confidence that you haphazardly tore down. I am in the process of healing, and every day I am getting stronger. Every day I am realizing that I am beautiful, I am a good person, I am enough. I am enough for myself, my friends, my family, and plenty of guys out there. I am a strong person, and like everything else, I will get through this, because I am resilient. I will be a kind, brave person, a person you don't, and never will deserve.
Sheetal Tadiparty
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