There has never been a gray area for me in anything. I am an all-or-nothing person, no in-between. I refuse to test the waters; I jump in with both feet. I've never known how to be someone with a middle ground in any sort of friendship or relationship. I put my all into everything, even though I've been told to wait and see. I can't go half way. That's just not who I am.

More often than not, when you're a person with loves with your entire heart and soul you're faced with times where you regret being the way you are. You learn that you care too much, too quickly, and usually end up burned. You wonder why you can't learn how to take things as they come, or why you care so much for someone who hardly thinks about you. Parents and friends will remind you to "take things slowly" or "don't dive in head first." But even though they continuously remind you of what happens when you jump into things, your mind refuses to pump the breaks and listen to them. Eventually, you wish it would stop, or hope that it is just a phase you're going through.

This is not a flaw or a phase. This is a magnificent part of you that truly encompasses who you are as a person and exemplifies how you choose to live your life. This part of you is a risk taker. This piece of you is what keeps you feeling alive. This specific trait makes you unique. Being a person who gives 100 percent straight from the beginning shows that you trust that person by making yourself vulnerable to them. This trait shows that you are willing to be raw and real with someone, that you want that person to see you for who you truly are. Your willingness to let your guard down for someone is hard to come by.

It is okay to dive into things head first, but with that I want to say that it isn't an easy trait to have. Right from the beginning you will want to give your entirety to someone.You'll want to devote every waking moment to them. You'll put in all your effort to the relationship. You will truly feel a sense of joy by giving them everything you have to offer. It took me a while to learn, but not everyone is worth deserving of that you wish to give them. Just because they let you shower them with your emotions doesn't mean that they will reciprocate. If you can learn to recognize that not everyone loves like you do, things become easier.

After going through many of life's adventures, I've learned to be okay with the fact that I do things with all my effort. It's okay to be the person who loves with their entire being. It's okay to jump into the deep end first. There is nothing wrong with putting all of your emotions into your relationships. If I were to do things half way I wouldn't be me.

I am proud to jump in with both feet.

I am proud that I don't have a middle ground.

"I don't know what gray is. I never did."