Dear Big,

Since I didn’t go through formal recruitment when I joined, today was my first bid day. Handfuls of alums paraded into the house to meet all the new members and stacking photos were everywhere. Most girls had their "Big" with them, and this made me miss you even more.

When the new women ran home, I thought back to my first few weeks in the chapter. I was nervous, anxious and afraid to attend any event due to fear of rejection. But, you did not care and dragged me to events and forced me to meet sisters. Slowly but surely, I came out of my shell and fell in love with my sisterhood. I also then became very attached to you. We were both very busy, but we still texted every single day. You are the girl I text when I have problems or too many drinks. You have wiped my tears. You have driven me home from parties I shouldn’t have gone to. You have fed me food on my worst days. You gave me hugs me when I needed it most.

However, you are now five hours away and have a real adult job. I am so proud of you for chasing your dreams and take total pride in the fact you are my Big. Our family line is a bit of a mess but in the best way possible. Not having you on Bid Day though, was a bigger mess, for my emotions. All I wanted was you hugging me and throwing me into a stacking photo. Now, all I can do is send you screenshots of potential Littles and discuss every aspect of their lives.

All I can say to everyone else is this: cherish your Big.

My Big is not only my Big but one of my best friends. I constantly wish she was with me and at sisterhood events. She has taught me sisterhood, values, and confidence. She has also taught me how to love my future Little.

So Future Little: Get ready to be spoiled with love and attention. Get ready to have me constantly stalking you. Get ready for tons of crafts, wine, and snuggles. Get ready for spam texts.

And you want to know why you will get all this? Because your G gave it all to me.