So much has happened since we last spoke. You were my person: the one I would go to as soon as something wonderful or awful happened. I wish I could reach out to you because you're still the first person I want to tell everything to, but I know that you're not here for me anymore. We were supposed to be best friends forever and I still don't understand what went wrong.

I just wanted to say that the way you've been treating me for the past couple of months was tearing me apart and that is the reason I had to walk away. I've been fighting for this friendship for months and it took all of the energy out of me. I blamed myself, thinking that our friendship was falling apart because of me, but I was wrong. I guess I was naive in thinking that you would try to fix things like you promised.

I realized a few weeks ago when I was feeling all alone, that I had to let go even though this friendship meant the world to me because you weren't even trying. I never wanted to let you go because I wanted to keep believing that you cared about me as much as I cared about you. I always wanted to be there for you and help you through everything. I never thought that after all of these years, after everything we had been through together that it would end like this.

You didn't think I was good enough and I could sense that you didn't want me around for months. I wish you could have been honest with me. I wish you told me that you didn't need me anymore because that would have made everything so much easier for me. If you just told me the truth, I wouldn't have had to spend all of those days hating myself. I could've saved myself a million cry sessions because I would have known that you not liking me wasn't my fault. I wouldn't have had to spend all of that time stuck in my room because I was too sad to leave the house.

I was just tired of fighting and tired of trying to fix things with someone who didn't even give half the effort I gave, and that's why I had to stop talking to you. It was for the best because continuing this friendship hurt me more and more every day and it tore my heart apart.

You can't just build someone up, let them trust you and then break their heart. I hope you treat your other friends better in the future. I hope you know that I want you to be happy, I want you to have friends and people in your life that will love you. You are a wonderful person and I wish you the best because you deserve the best.

I'll never forget all of the talks we had about life over coffee. I'll never forget how much you helped me when I all I wanted to do was give up on myself. I'll always remember our laughs and all of the happy moments we shared.

I admit it. I'm heartbroken. I didn't think you would turn into a person I wouldn't be able to recognize. I never thought you would be the one to hurt me when you were also the only person who could make everything better. I'm so sorry for leaving, but honestly if you think about it, you're the one who left months ago. I just couldn't bring myself to admit it, and I realized that in order to find happiness, I had to leave too.

I wish none of this fighting ever happened because I miss you so much and I don't know if I'm ever going to get over this. You were one of the best parts of my life and I will never regret meeting you my freshman year of college. I know we're not talking anymore and that we might never speak again, but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for hurting you and whether you believe it or not, I will always care about you. Despite all of this, I will always love you.