I was new to school when we met. I knew a few people from community things but I didn't have friends. I was alone. You were in my first period English class. My very first class, at my new school, as a freshman. The most laid back class of my entire high school career now that I think about it. I remember when we introduced ourselves to each other on day 1. We were on the opposite side of the room, away from all the "cool kids", You and me and two or three other students. It was our only class together but it was fine. We bonded over random things- music, movies, jokes, everything.
We did a science project together. We made cells out of sweet treats and candy. I went to your house met your family. Days later you came to my house and met my family. It was the beginning of a beautiful friendship. We enjoyed so many of the same things and even introduced each other to new music and games and food. We weren't the typical boy crazed teenagers, We were just living life.
You made a huge impact on my life. So I thank you for introducing me to my new favorite band who I am going to drive 4 hours to see by myself. Thank you for introducing me to my favorite show, The Office, I watch it almost every night. Thank you for showing me how to cheat on The Sims, it really comes in handy. Thank you for movie marathons and pig outs and Olympic marathons and more pig outs. My God, could we eat.
You gave more to me than I could ever imagine and I thank you. You shared so much with me and I could never find it in me to open up to you. But when I did, you were gone. You made me hate myself more than I ever thought I could. After four years of friendship, I opened up to you about my depression and you weren't supportive. Maybe you didn't know what to say, I would rather you have told me that instead of telling me I need to fix myself in order to be happy with myself. Yeah, I know that but I couldn't do it alone. That's why two years later I am in still in this mess, alone. You are living your life getting ready to graduate in a year or so and I'm not. You are meeting new friends and enjoying life and I am not.
I am moving on to new things to get myself better. So thank you for walking away, I will make this better without you.
